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There's so many exhortations in the Bible for God's people to open their mouths and speak.

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Over and over again in the Psalms, just let it stand out to you every time the Psalmist says,

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I will say, I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge, my strength, my high tower, my fortress,

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my shield, my buckler, I will say, not I will think, not I will write, I will say.

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Welcome to the City Light Church podcast. Thanks for joining us today as we look into God's word

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and discover the hope and truth that He has for us. If you want to connect with City Light Church,

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feel free to visit us at citylightnyc.com that's citylightnyc.com.

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Pastor Boyan Jansik and his team believe that the power of the Holy Spirit is already working in

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our hearts and minds. As you listen to today's teaching, remember that you are deeply

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loved by God, that you are surrounded by His grace, and that He has a real hope and a future for you.

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I remember nearly 20 years ago, I was given a BMW, three series,

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but nevertheless BMW.

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And the Lord was working on me to train myself to respond with praise when negative things happen.

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I had just been learning about the principle of first words. When you have an interruption in

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your life, when you get a negative report, when something bad happens, the first words you speak

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out of your mouth will determine the road, the course that you take concerning that negative event.

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And I was in this awesome beamer. The Lord is teaching me this.

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And I see somebody coming from my right, and she's on her cell phone,

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and I see out of the corner of my eye, I see this.

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And she's laughing her head off on her cell phone, so she's oblivious to everything around her.

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And she cuts me off and just wax it, and I stop. As soon as she whacked me,

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I feel like I need to specify. As soon as she hit my car, I am in New York City after all.

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She shouldn't off me. She hit my car. I just lifted my hands up. I was being trained by the Lord.

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And I said, Hallelujah, Lord, you're going to do something great.

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Now she hit me hard. Have you ever been hit while driving?

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The first shock is how loud it is. Do you remember that? The first

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what you hear in the movie, you can't replicate what you're experiencing in real life,

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you get hit, and it's like, the whole car shakes.

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And I lift up my hands and say, Jesus, you're going to do something great.

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I think I also said, this will result in your glory. And now I get out of the car and I'm going,

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let's see the damage. She gets out of her car and is very anxiously approaching my car.

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And we both start looking at my car, and we go around the entire front bumper and the hood,

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and there isn't a scratch on it. There's not a scratch on it. It doesn't make any sense in the natural.

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And she knew she hit me. I heard the crash and there wasn't a scratch on it.

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It was something that I believe that the Lord did miraculously to teach me the importance

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of first words, the importance of opening your mouth. The importance of giving him glory and

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praising him when supposedly bad things happen. I say supposedly because you don't know how it's

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going to turn out. But when you get that negative report, when it seems like you've gotten a life

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interruption and not the divine kind, not the good kind, your words make all the difference.

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And this is why the Bible commands you to praise him.

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It commands you to praise him. The scripture says to shout unto the Lord with the voice of depression,

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with the voice of triumph. These are instructions not on how to behave when you're on the mountaintop.

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These are instructions on how to behave when you're in the valley or in the pit of despair even.

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It's easy. You know, it's always funny to me a couple that gets newly married,

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what their first worship service in church is like after they get married.

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The guy who's never lifted his hands is like praise the Lord. There's all this and they're also

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happy and filled with joy and there's this exuberance and I'm going, where was this?

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I'm happy that you're happy, but nah, that was in you. You didn't let it come out of you.

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Something stifled you. You told yourself every reason, whatever excuses you had, but

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and then it tapers down, but that's how we can be every time it's time to worship and praise the

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Lord. Now I'm seeing these things because I'm after your breakthrough. I'm after what's good for you.

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Not because I want more ra ra in the service, but when I take the mic after worship,

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and there's after again, look at the ceiling, let somebody think I'm talking about them.

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And then I see there's some people and they're just kind of like looking at a dot.

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They got the hundred yards there. And they're just kind of waiting for it to be over or

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they're thinking about what they're going to do later in the day or what's up ahead in the week.

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And my heart just breaks because I know they're missing out.

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And if you can't do it in here where it's easy, how will you do it when there's a life

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interruption of the satanic kind? But you shouting unto the Lord with the voice of triumph,

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you having a hallelujah anyhow. You get a bad phone call. You receive a terrible email.

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There's some kind of strife in your life. You have to train yourself to hallelujah, Lord.

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I'm in the palm of your hand and I thank you. You are faithful and true and you're working it out.

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I trust in you. I shout unto you with the voice of triumph. If you can't do it in here,

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we're all gathered together and you have a whole worship team leading you. And how will you do

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it when the rubber meets the road? No pun intended.

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So this is something that we have to get better in.

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There's those who are already like this is the wildest church I've ever been in.

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What are you asking of them? But we have to reach a point of critical mass.

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That's usually around 65%. We have to reach a point of critical mass of radical dedicated

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on fire believers who are yes. Yes, they're expressive.

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This is not a style thing. This is not a denomination thing. This is not a personality thing.

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This is a Bible thing. There has to be an expression. You look at everyone who received a miracle

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from Jesus. There was a hunger and a faith manifested with an expression.

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He was healed and went walking and leaping and praising God. Can you imagine?

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Emily, my wife Emily would whittle away, emotional whittle away and die if I just had an

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expressionless marriage. How do you do, wife? You know I love you. I wrote you a letter about it

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before we got married. There has to be a passion that's expressed. And you read the Psalms,

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you cannot deny that there is a passion there. You say, well, I'm not an expressive person. Yes,

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you are. Yes. Oh, no, I'm shy. No. If you were right now getting on a subway train,

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you were holding the door for someone and somehow the doors malfunctioned and caught your finger.

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And the doors jammed on your finger. You would not say, cheerio, good people.

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Perchance, is there anybody on the subway car that could help me out?

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You would very expressively say, ah! Somebody pull me out of here!

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All of a sudden, what happened to your shyness and your introvertedness?

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Your passion came out. Again, this is not a personality thing. This is a Bible thing.

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And I'm after it because I know your breakthrough is on the other end of it. It is

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lifting up the hands. It's not a denomination thing. You see it in the scriptures.

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Over and David said, Lord, in Psalm 67, this is how I'm going to bless you while I live.

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I will lift up my hands to your name. Paul said, I want everywhere men lifting up holy hands

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without wrath or doubting. That means don't be angry. Don't be confused. Lift up your holy hands.

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And I'll never forget. That was the weird thing to me when I first became a Christian. I could

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deal even speaking in tongues because it was explained to me. I understood it and to me was cool

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and supernatural. It was awesome. But then the people lifting up their hands, I just thought to myself,

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now this is starting to look fanatical. I want a cool Christianity that I can export,

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but this lifting up the hands, that's probably all the movies I'd seen beforehand.

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Maybe I saw some videos of some snake handlers in the Appalachian Mountains,

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and I associated it with the fanatic lifting up the hands.

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So it wasn't until I was saved in 92. It wasn't until my first year of college in 94

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in a church out in Long Island, everybody would lift their hands and I would think,

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you know what, I'm going to give this a try. I'm sensing the Lord. I'm wanting to just worship him.

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And it was the eternal struggle to get half-mast. Just, and you know, a lot of us have main

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characters in Rome. We think everybody's looking at us. We think people are judging us. We think

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we're so interesting. Nobody really cares. They don't. They're too busy thinking that everyone's

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looking at them. So in my mind, I thought the whole church is going to look at me.

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And why did it take so much for my hands to get half-mast?

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Because there was breakthrough there. There was something about surrender.

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There was something about the prince of the power of the air and you lifting up your hands

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into the air and saying, this is my space. Even totally secular humanists. What's his name?

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The motivational speaker with the face like a horse? Tony Robbins.

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Why what? You all knew who I was talking about right away. Don't look at me like how could you say

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that? You knew who I was talking about right away. You need to repent. That was a test. I wanted to

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see if you would get it on it. You all laughed right away. Totally secular, but he will say,

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in the morning, the first thing you should do is take a wide stance, lift up your arms in a

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V shape because there is a mind-body connection and it prepares you for a day of victory. Your physiology

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changes when you lift up your hands for 30 seconds. That's just him from a totally secular humanistic

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point of view. Never mind the spiritual of what you're actually saying. You're saying, I surrender.

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You're saying, I worship you and you're in a place of receiving.

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But these are the expressions that have somehow just been relegated to, oh, that's charismatic,

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oh, that's Pentecostal. No, it's Bible and it is Bible to shout unto the Lord with the voice of triumph

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to open your mouth, especially when you don't feel like it. That's where the victory is.

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Anybody can praise them on the mountaintop. Hallelujah. Death and life are in the power of the

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tongue and they that love it. What is it in that sentence? They that love it will eat the fruit

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thereof. They that love what? They that love the truth that death and life are in the power of the

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tongue. They that love the fact that God created you in His similitude, in His image and that the same

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creative power He has in His mouth He put in yours. And so you just look, it seems like I'm

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harping on a little thing but this is so big. There's so many exhortations in the Bible

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for God's people to open their mouths and speak. Over and over again in the Psalms, just let it

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stand out to you every time the Psalmist says, I will say, I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge,

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my strength, my high tower, my fortress, my shield, my buckler. I will say, not I will think,

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not I will write, I will say. And so the enemy is not worried, he's not intimidated of God's

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people coming together in half of them during a crescendo like that where it was our opportunity

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to really let the maker and king of heaven know to make a declaration here in New York City.

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He's not intimidated, he's not bothered, he loves it. I want to chunk of us to just

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I'm after your breakthrough. There is a satanic gorilla glue and he comes and he applies it on

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people's lips. I used to say crazy glue but nobody knew what I was talking about, it was an

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outdated reference. It's a gorilla glue now. Do you remember crazy glue? The guy with the

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hard hat, this thing. Awesome, four people are in their 40s, that's beautiful.

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You want a gorilla glue, super glue? It's good glue. The thing that holds up my smartphone

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and my dashboard comes with a suction and it just keeps falling off, falling off. And I was like,

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you know what? I don't care what it does to the resale value. Gorilla glue and a dashboard.

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It's been like a statue ever since. He loves to come with that gorilla, we'll put it on your lips

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especially when you're going through it and just if you're quiet, you're not creating.

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But when you begin to speak, especially when you're praising him, some of you you've never

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shouted how the glue out loud. And I'm glad for that. I'm glad only because it shows that we're

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growing church and there's people at all different levels in their Christianity. I'm glad. You

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don't want to become just like this incestual, blessed me club of 20 people that have all known

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each other for the last 20 years and they're all hallelujah people. But there's a disease in

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church known as coin anitis. And a coin ania is the Greek word for fellowship, that's beautiful.

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But when there's no new people coming in that are not evangelizing and the churches and growing

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and I know I was getting saved, then it just becomes this inbred impenetrable social club.

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And then you have the disease of coin anitis.

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So I'm glad that there's different people at different levels. I'm after those you may be like me

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in 94 where I couldn't get past half mast and when I finally did change a lot of things.

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I want to give you permission this morning to be expressive.

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You notice that Jesus never quieted anybody. I always found that fascinating.

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That is awesome. It's beautiful. He never shed anyone. You think about what it looked like when he

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was ministering all the kids running around. They didn't have children's church then.

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Babies crying kids running around. People talking amongst themselves. And then people crying out.

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Now the religious quieted people. Blind Bartimaeus shouted, son of David have mercy on me.

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And it says they'll want, don't bother him. And you know what his response was? It says he cried out all

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the more son of David have mercy on me. And that caught Jesus's eye and released the anointing

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that made old blind Bartimaeus see again. I mean almost every miracle of healing falls under this

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category. But I was always especially intrigued with the paralytic and his friends that climbed up

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to the house and ripped the roof off of the house. It says, Jesus seen their faith.

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You would think you would say, what have you done to this nice man's roof?

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But Jesus said, well, we'll get to the roof. I'll send you a love offering.

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My ministry has got it covered. But he saw their faith.

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It matters. It matters. If you're locked up, you prevent God from touching you and bringing

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into your life what he wants to bring into your life. And there's all these reasons and lies.

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I was taught something in Bible school just about life. I'll never forget. I was just teaching

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my son this last week. I'll never forget the statement excuses our lies. All excuses are lies.

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Excuses we give other people excuses we make for ourselves. They're all lies.

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So whatever excuses you've been telling yourself, oh, that's not my personality,

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oh, that sounds too radical or fanatical. Oh, I'll do it in the privacy of my own home.

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You should be willing to do it anywhere. And you're blessed to live in New York City where you

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could do it anywhere and no one will even look twice. You can do it on a subway platform.

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You can lift both hands and shout in tongues and people walk right past you and not even pay you

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any mind. I'm just reminded yesterday when you came into the house. I closed on the house.

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It was amazing. So Mauricio came over yesterday and he came in already drunk in the Holy Spirit.

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You ready? I heard him laughing in the driveway. And so I opened the door. He comes in

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and I immediately just let out a praise in a heavenly language. He joins me in. Now there's no

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furniture in the place and it's stone floor. So it's just echoes. I mean, it was like you had a

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sound stage and then there was one of those speedwalks. I love the suburbs. I'm getting used to

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suburb culture. I didn't know speed walking was still a thing, but I guess it's like I think of

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the 90s and more walkers, but she was, you know, I don't want to imitate it. And she looked in like

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who are these people? Are they Middle Eastern or what language was that that I just heard?

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I just gave her the nod. There goes the neighborhood.

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God wants you to have an experience.

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Our Christianity has to be an experiential Christianity.

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Why don't you just open up your heart right now? Those of you joining us online,

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welcome to City Light Church. Right where you are. Just take a moment and let your guard down.

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That wall that slowly gets put up over our heart. Let it drop. Forgive whoever you need to forgive.

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If you're suffering from condemnation, look to the blood of Jesus and forgive yourself as Christ

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has forgiven you. Some people don't praise him. They're not expressive because they say, well, I'm not

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worthy. That doesn't matter. He's still worthy. Who are you to stop praising him just because you

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think you're not worthy because you don't have a full revelation of the depth of the cleansing of

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the blood of Jesus, but he's still worthy. Open up your heart and know this that our God is a God

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of experience. Abraham became the father of many nations because he had an experience with God.

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Moses, he led the children of Israel out of Egypt because God appeared to him in a bush and a

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fire in the bush. The bush was not consumed, but Moses had an experience. David had an experience.

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Elijah had an experience. Elijah had an experience. Everyone of the patriarchs had an experience. Jacob

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he had an experience laid his head on a stone. They were built different back then.

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I love my temperate. Jacob finds a nice rock to use as a pillow and he realizes he says there was

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something about that place. This is the very portal to heaven, the stairway to God. He had an

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experience that marked him forever. And then as our ultimate example, Jesus had an experience.

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He came up out of the water. Do you know how the father welcomed his son into ministry,

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into his mission, into what he was put on earth to do with an experience. The heavens opened

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and the Holy Spirit alighted upon him, descending from heaven like a dove.

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And then even more as an example to us, 120 in the upper room, no one had preached the gospel yet,

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but they were all filled with the Holy Spirit. They had an experience and then the world was turned

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upside down. God wants to give you an experience. God wants you to have a consistent experiential

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Christianity. Consistent. Every week ask him, Lord, I want to experience your love. I want to

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experience your voice. I want to experience your shepherd like leading and guiding. I want to

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experience the miraculous. Begin to pursue him and watch what he does. Oh, he loves to answer

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prayers like that. The Apostle Paul, he wrote the Ephesians, he said, I pray for you,

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that you would experientially know the love of God, which cannot be, cannot be intellectually

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known. Does the Apostle Paul? I pray that you would experientially know

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because he can't be known intellectually. I've been thinking about this all week for my son.

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He just turned nine a couple of months ago and I feel like the Lord has been visiting me.

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Let me let me clarify what that means. Sometimes the Lord has been visiting me for some

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the number of lumens in your room. You go up several orders of magnitude when he visited you.

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That's preacher talk sometimes. You know, he said, the Lord has been visiting me. He's what I mean.

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I'm eating chips on my sofa. Thinking about something other than God and all of a sudden

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on the inside, I'm thinking of my son and I see him getting touched by the Holy Spirit.

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So that happens once, that happens twice, that happens over the course of the week. That's what I

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mean by the Lord was visiting me. Forgive me for that preacherism. And I discern this is the Lord

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telling me that he wants to take Victor to the next level. Sure, city kids is nice. Sure,

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Bible stories are nice. And we pray together as a family. That's nice.

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But now he needs to experience the experiential God.

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And then out of the blue, Pastor Marie is a good friend of mine. Text me yesterday and

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says the exact same thing. He said, I later said, I said,

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why are you writing me this? He didn't know. He said, I've been in an extended time of prayer

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in seeking the Lord. And he's ministering at another person's church today. And he's like,

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I was in preparation. I've been like hearing the Lord like never before. And I sensed that for

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you. And I sent you that text. And I said, you couldn't be more right on.

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Why is this important to the Lord? Because there's a lot of theories out there, a lot of

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chitchatter, a lot of opinions. I don't know if you've noticed, but culture in America is radically

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shifting. A lot of theories, but when you have an experience, you have an advantage because

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a man or a woman with an experience, they are never at the mercy of a man or woman with just a theory.

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So you're invited into an experiential Christianity by the Lord. And those of you who are

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already experiencing that, and I hear the Lord saying, there's an invitation to go deeper.

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There's an invitation. I'm never satisfied.

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I want to walk down the street vibrating with the glory of God.

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I want to be getting coffee at the corner bodega and just be arrested as the Lord whispers to me.

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Do you know that Jesus said the Holy Spirit, He's the great comforter, He will come to you and show

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you things to come. He will tell you things to come. What does that mean? It means He's going to tell

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you the future. Everybody wants to know the future. People pay big money all over New York City for

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for the readings and all that witchcraft and that occultism. And Jesus doesn't charge you

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thing. He said you can receive the Holy Spirit. He will tell you things to come.

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But the catch is in order to receive that, to hear that you have to be heavenly minded.

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And the thing is you can't force yourself. That's what I found. All the exhortations to be

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heavenly minded. They used to frustrate me because you cannot psych yourself up into being

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heavenly minded. I've tried. All right, I'm tired of the way I've been living life.

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Today's Monday, I'm going to be heavenly minded. Go.

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You can't. It works for like the first two times. And then you're

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carnally minded again overwhelmed with the cares of this world. Being heavenly minded

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is a consequence and a direct result out of an experiential relationship with the Lord

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when you're talking to Him. And He's warming your heart. He's flowing out of your spirit.

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There's an ease to everything. There's an ease. And to those of you who you think you're distant,

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notice I say you think you're distant because the Bible says because of the blood of Jesus,

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you who are in the outside have been brought near, have been brought close. But understand,

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when you're overwhelmed with the cares of this world, you think you're far from God. You think

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you're distant. What's the secret? Start talking to God. Just start talking to Him. Open your mouth

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and just start talking to Him. When you're under attack, when you're in a dry place,

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it may be hard to talk to Him for more than three minutes.

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Fine. Talk to Him for three minutes and then do it again an hour later.

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And salt and pepper and interspersure day then with three minute spurts.

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Say, what should I talk to Him about? It's between you and the Lord. Talk to Him about just talk to

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Him. There's other ways I can teach on the principles of prayer, how to pray effectively,

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and there are certain principles you can apply. Just forget that for now. You just need to open

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up your mouth and talk to your heavenly Father. And He doesn't mind. The Lord is so awesome.

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Can I confess something to you? I've already confessed it during 21 days of prayer and fasting.

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And I sometimes think my confessions are the greatest hindrance to church growth here at City Light.

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But I'm going to confess anyway. City Light won't pay for therapy sessions for me,

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so I'm forced to make the congregation my therapist. No, I want you to learn and I want to share this.

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No, I have been bored to tears by listening to some people pray.

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And don't tell me you haven't either. Have you ever listened to someone pray for like 10 minutes,

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you don't know one thing they said? What are you even like? My mind is melting. My IQ just dropped

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50 points. Just listening to you go around and around and oh, Father God, Lord, we just,

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we just, we just, Lord God, Father God, Lord God, we just want to, we just, I feel like if we were

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to listen in an heaven it's just, we just, we just, we just want to, we just, Father God,

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Father God, oh God, oh God, oh God, Father God, we just, we just want, and I was thinking that,

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right? As somebody was just not here by the way, never here, no. These other prayer meetings

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have been attending. Another church in desperate need of revival, not here though. And I'm having this

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thought. And the Lord, the Lord just warms my heart with his love and his patience.

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And you know, he, he just receives things in a different way. For me, in the natural, I'm just

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thinking in somebody's just like, will you just say something that I don't even know how to

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translate your prayer. It doesn't have a beginning, middle and end. It's just words. It's like this

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prayer salad. But the Lord is hearing their heart. And it's music to his ears. And he's just after

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our heart. Hallelujah. And so you can't go wrong is what I'm saying in talking to him.

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Don't ever feel intimidated. Or what will he think? He loves you. He wants to hear from you.

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I'm so glad that the person who led me to the Lord about a week and I asked him, how do I pray?

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Or did I say, what is prayer? And he said, it's picking up the phone and talking to your best friend.

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And that's set me free. That statement actually in the beginning of my Christianity set me free to walk

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on a road of intimacy and not being timid because so many people are intimidated of prayer.

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I don't want to bother him. I know he's busy and he's so big and so strong and powerful and who am I?

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So they quickly come in with their grocery list of prayers, say, amen, and peace out.

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Now open up your heart. You know what the Psalmist said?

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And pour out your complaints before him.

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So although we're to speak victory and speak positively, there is space for you to tell the Lord

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how you're feeling, how you're doing. Tell the Lord your questions about life, about him,

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about your faith. Open up to him and watch what he does. But you have to say it out loud.

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You have to speak to him about these things. You have to. There was something about our words

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giving permission to the Lord. Are you hearing me? Yo, who? Blast for me? Blast for me? The Lord

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doesn't need our permission. Many times he won't violate his own word and his word has said, you still are

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a sovereign agent. You know the story of how the Lord saved me? Many of you do just came crashing

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into my life and wasn't really looking for him. He put a hunger in me. Just rescued me. I always tell

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that story, but there's another story that happened about six years before then that I don't

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often share because it's odd. It was in the mid 80s, like 86, 87. No, more like 85, 86.

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And my father was going through a very, very difficult time in his life.

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He thought he was very ill. And he was watching a TV preacher by the name of Jimmy Swagger.

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And I thought he had lost his mind. And my mom was like, he'd lost his mind. Coming from

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Yugoslavia, there are two terrible things that can happen to you when you move to America. Any

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Eastern European country, there's two horrible things, two snares in America. You have to look out

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for as an immigrant. One drugs, two religious fanaticism. Those are the two awful things. Not the

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fornication, not the sex, not all that other degeneracy, but religious fanaticism and drugs.

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And so we're looking at my dad like, this is his proof. He's lost his mind.

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And he calls me and my mom over. And he says, he's going to say this prayer at the end. Let's all come

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in and say it. So my mom and I, he's now have tears running down his face and we huddle

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and we say a prayer. I don't even know what I said. Later, I realized that it was the prayer at the

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end of the TV show, at the end of the preaching segment. It was a type of the sinner's prayer.

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And but I didn't even know the word. I didn't even know what I was saying. I just mouthed off some

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prayer. And then that ended and we never talked about God ever again for years. My dad didn't

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continue. My dad didn't read the Bible. It was just because when the crisis lifted his pursuit for

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God lifted. And it was just like business as usual, like it never ever happened.

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But what, six years later, the Lord came crashing into our lives through me and then my parents were

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one. I've often wondered, could it be that the reason he came crashing in so aggressively, violently

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into our lives was because six years before, even though we didn't know what we were mounting off,

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we legally asked him to. We legally opened up our lives for him to invade. Words matter. You were saved

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and forgiven of all your sins by the words of your mouth. You confessed with your mouth and

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believed in your heart. We in that prayer only confessed with our mouth. We didn't really believe

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in our heart, but there's still some kind of power to words. So be careful when you say,

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I'll never do this again and it's something you know you should do, something the Lord is calling

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you to. You can bind yourself up legally speaking with your words. Don't curse your life like that.

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Hallelujah.

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I'm feeling like we should sing a song to Jesus.

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The Lord wants to just breathe fresh on you. Our church is in a special place.

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You know how I know? I just know. I just know. It's like when you go outside and you smell the air

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and you know it's going to rain, I just know there's some shift happening. Somehow it's tied to

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this whole house thing that happened. It happened. I wasn't believing for it. I was impressing

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in for it. In a space of nine days, we went from flooded Brooklyn, Kondo to making an offer in a

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house miraculously. And then we had already planned on vacationing overseas and then we make an

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offer in the house. And the first question Emily had was, are we still going on vacation? Because

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this is not a time to be leaving the country. There's so many things that can go wrong with a deal

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like this. I looked at her and said, in Jesus name, we're going on vacation. Yes, we are.

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And I got crazy calls and emails while on vacation and there was so many things that could,

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you know how it is, so many things. And then it went over. I had the interest rate lock at a

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delicious 6.1. And that was like 7.3 or something. And so I went over that because the deal kept

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being put into the future. And now the mortgage company is like already $2,500 if you want to

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extend it another two weeks. I mean, that's a no-brainer. Finance wise, but now I'm just being

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extorted, but okay. And then right before the closing, I do the house inspection and they,

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I keep, do you mind if I say what you do? He's a man of many talents, but his primary

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professor in attorney. And he focuses on real estate, Brian Anderson there. And right before the

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closing, I do the final walkthrough and they took all the mirrors down in the bathroom. Now my lawyer

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had explained the way that works is if you take a house, flip it upside down, whatever comes out,

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they can take, but whatever sticks, I mean it was like fixed to the wall. Now there's no mirrors.

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And I had a great attorney and he was like, you know, we're going to get those daily, the

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compensator work. And I'm like, you know what? I don't have the mirrors. I don't want to

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frustrate this at all. I don't want to mess with it. That's just closed because it was so many.

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It was a mirror and we just closed on Friday. Why am I saying all this? One, it was a major victory,

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but I feel because of the way God did it. This wasn't me just thinking about something,

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talking about something, saving for something, believing for something. And it was supernatural.

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It was absolutely supernatural. Our lives have completely changed in just a few months.

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And I just want to encourage some of you. How does that saying go? There's weeks where nothing

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happens and then days where years happen or something like that. But I think I'm like, you know,

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Lord, it's been a quiet year really. I always want to see you taking me, Lord, from glory to glory.

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I want to look back and say, look what the Lord has done. But sometimes you'll just have a quiet

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year. You'll have a quiet several years. And nothing is happening. And then all of a sudden in three

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months, and you're at a whole nother level. I believe the Lord did it as a sign to me about what he

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wants to do with city light church. And I sense it in the air. There is a hunger here.

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And sometimes you're just entering and there's stuff that you can't put into words because it's too

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deep for us. There's just a chiro's moment. You know that word chiro's? It means the time, the time.

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Not the time. That's chronos, chronometer. But chiro's is where time and destiny collide.

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When you're in the appointed time, the set time of the Father,

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Jesus came at a chiro's moment in human history at the time appointed by the Father.

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And I believe we're just entering into a chiro's moment for city light church.

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This is the city light church podcast. If you've missed any part of today's message,

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or if you would like to find out more about Pastor Boyan Jansik in city light church,

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visit us at citylightnyc.com. That's citylightnyc.com. Feel free to visit us online or in person anytime.

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We would love to connect with you. We pray that you have been encouraged today,

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that you have been reminded how much God loves you, and that you are surrounded by grace.

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