WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.720 God does what only God can do. 2 00:00:02.720 --> 00:00:07.200 He literally takes that which is dead and resurrects it and brings it to light. 3 00:00:07.200 --> 00:00:11.680 Is there any dead thing in your life that you think can't live? 4 00:00:11.680 --> 00:00:14.560 One of the visions and the dreams that you thought have died. 5 00:00:14.560 --> 00:00:17.920 I'm here to tell you God can bring those suckers back to life. 6 00:00:17.920 --> 00:00:21.280 One of the relationships that have been killed and you think, man, 7 00:00:21.280 --> 00:00:23.360 I will be single and lonely forever. 8 00:00:23.360 --> 00:00:25.440 No, you won't if you allow God in. 9 00:00:26.240 --> 00:00:28.560 Welcome to the City Light Church podcast. 10 00:00:28.560 --> 00:00:35.520 Thanks for joining us today as we look into God's word and discover the hope and truth that he has for us. 11 00:00:35.520 --> 00:00:41.360 If you want to connect with City Light Church, feel free to visit us at citylightnyc.com. 12 00:00:41.360 --> 00:00:44.720 That's citylightnyc.com. 13 00:00:44.720 --> 00:00:52.480 Pastor Boyan Jansik and his team believe that the power of the Holy Spirit is already working in our hearts and minds. 14 00:00:52.480 --> 00:00:57.360 As you listen to today's teaching, remember that you are deeply loved by God. 15 00:00:57.360 --> 00:01:02.480 That you are surrounded by His grace and that He has a real hope and a future for you. 16 00:01:06.080 --> 00:01:07.920 So again, welcome to City Light Church. 17 00:01:07.920 --> 00:01:09.120 My name is Muhammad Worry. 18 00:01:09.120 --> 00:01:10.320 One of the pastors here. 19 00:01:12.800 --> 00:01:14.800 God is really up to something. 20 00:01:17.200 --> 00:01:21.040 The reason I said earlier that at City Light, we're not taking off for the summer. 21 00:01:22.000 --> 00:01:28.080 We find that a lot of churches across the country, they go into auto-pilot during the summer months, 22 00:01:28.080 --> 00:01:35.520 because people travel, it tends to get lean in churches, but we just refuse to abide by that. 23 00:01:36.880 --> 00:01:44.160 Every day we want to believe and grow and get closer to Him and be used by Him and get a better glimpse 24 00:01:44.160 --> 00:01:45.360 of who God is. Amen. 25 00:01:45.360 --> 00:01:51.120 So if I'm in relationship with God in the same way that I don't take a break from my wife, 26 00:01:52.400 --> 00:01:56.800 because I'm in relationship with her, I'm in covenant with her, I'm not taking a break from Jesus. 27 00:01:58.640 --> 00:01:59.040 Amen. 28 00:02:00.000 --> 00:02:01.120 All right, some people are, oh. 29 00:02:04.880 --> 00:02:07.200 God is good. I'm excited. 30 00:02:07.200 --> 00:02:09.360 We had an amazing time in the first service. 31 00:02:10.640 --> 00:02:14.400 Pray that a Lord continue to move as He was. 32 00:02:14.400 --> 00:02:19.440 Amen. But without any further ado, I'm just going to hop right into the word of God. 33 00:02:19.440 --> 00:02:23.920 We're going to start in Genesis 11, we're going to read from 27 to 32. 34 00:02:27.440 --> 00:02:29.200 This is the genealogy of terror. 35 00:02:29.840 --> 00:02:32.640 Terror be got Abraham, Nahor, and Haran. 36 00:02:33.120 --> 00:02:34.400 Haran be got lot. 37 00:02:35.520 --> 00:02:40.480 And Haran died before his father, Tara, in his native land in Er of the Chaldeans. 38 00:02:40.960 --> 00:02:43.840 Then Abraham and Nahor took wives. 39 00:02:43.840 --> 00:02:48.080 The name of Abram's wife was Sarai, and the name of Nahor's wife, 40 00:02:48.080 --> 00:02:52.000 Milka, the daughter of Haran, the father of Milka, and the father of Iska. 41 00:02:53.440 --> 00:02:56.480 But Sarai was barren. She had no child. 42 00:02:57.600 --> 00:03:02.560 And Tara took his son, Abram, and his grandson, the son of Haran, and his daughter-in-law, 43 00:03:02.560 --> 00:03:08.480 Sarai, his son, Abram's wife, and they went out from there from Er of the Chaldeans to go to 44 00:03:08.480 --> 00:03:12.080 the land of Canaan. How many people know that's the promised land? 45 00:03:13.680 --> 00:03:15.920 And they came to Haran and dwelt there. 46 00:03:17.200 --> 00:03:23.120 So the days of Tara were 205 years, and Tara died in Haran. 47 00:03:24.880 --> 00:03:31.920 So one of the most overlooked stories in the Bible involves the father of faith. 48 00:03:31.920 --> 00:03:35.600 People know that Abraham is the father of faith. We even sing songs about him. 49 00:03:35.600 --> 00:03:38.320 Father Abraham, and many sons. 50 00:03:38.320 --> 00:03:40.320 Hey, so we're not going to do that today, stop. 51 00:03:42.960 --> 00:03:48.480 But people don't really know a lot about Tara, and I find it super interesting because 52 00:03:49.680 --> 00:03:52.480 Tara, if you look at the scriptures, there's this 53 00:03:54.160 --> 00:03:58.400 notation where it looks like God was pushing him, because specifically it says that 54 00:03:58.400 --> 00:04:05.040 Tara wanted to go to Canaan. We know that God wanted to use this man's family ultimately 55 00:04:05.040 --> 00:04:11.840 to build up the children of Israel to be his own people. But can you believe that God was going 56 00:04:11.840 --> 00:04:17.120 to use Tara in order to do it? Because Tara was the patriarch of their family. 57 00:04:22.400 --> 00:04:26.160 But the thing is, Abram's father, Tara, experienced the painful loss 58 00:04:26.800 --> 00:04:30.400 that ended up preventing him from reaching his intended destination. 59 00:04:31.120 --> 00:04:36.160 The Bible says that his son Haran died. That was his youngest son. This is lots of daddy. 60 00:04:38.960 --> 00:04:43.600 And I just find it so interesting and it's very quick and you'll miss it if you don't pay attention 61 00:04:43.600 --> 00:04:48.240 to the scriptures. Because what we look at, we tend to read line, line, line, but understand that 62 00:04:48.240 --> 00:04:53.760 these were actual people who lived, amen? So what you look at is line, line, line was years and 63 00:04:53.840 --> 00:05:04.000 years of life lived out. So he has this intention to go to the promised land. He's living in a land 64 00:05:04.000 --> 00:05:11.840 full of idolatry and pagans. He's probably a pagan himself. But yet he has this inclination, 65 00:05:11.840 --> 00:05:16.800 I need to get out of this place and I need to go there, the land of milk and honey. 66 00:05:17.760 --> 00:05:24.400 And he endeavors to bring his entire family up out of that place. And he goes and it's so funny 67 00:05:24.400 --> 00:05:30.880 that he gets to a place that has the same name and there's no insignificant detail in the Bible. 68 00:05:31.760 --> 00:05:37.040 So he's traveling to Canaan. His end goal is the place that we know of in the scriptures as 69 00:05:37.040 --> 00:05:42.320 the promised land. He's venturing like every one of us to get to the promises of God. 70 00:05:42.320 --> 00:05:52.960 And then he stops at the name of his trauma. He stops in the place that is named after his 71 00:05:52.960 --> 00:06:00.160 dead son. And the Bible says that he eventually died in that place and he never makes it to Canaan. 72 00:06:01.760 --> 00:06:03.760 Do you see the significance already? 73 00:06:03.840 --> 00:06:15.280 Although this family moved from their native land toward the land of milk and honey Canaan, 74 00:06:15.280 --> 00:06:21.040 Tara never made it. Perhaps when he and his family reached the city that just so happened to have 75 00:06:21.040 --> 00:06:27.680 the same name as his dead son, he couldn't go any further. Tara had to do what many of us have 76 00:06:27.680 --> 00:06:31.760 failed to do which is passed through Iran in order to get where God was calling him. 77 00:06:32.640 --> 00:06:39.200 Meaning we have to face the pain of our past to be healed before we can go on to that thing called 78 00:06:39.200 --> 00:06:51.680 next. Today I feel like the Lord is leading us to a place where we have to discuss and deal with the past. 79 00:06:51.920 --> 00:07:01.920 All right, you can unclench your butt cheeks. Because the minute you bring up the past and having to 80 00:07:01.920 --> 00:07:11.680 deal, but why, Pastor Moe? I'm here. It's the present. Well, there are a lot of things in your past 81 00:07:11.680 --> 00:07:17.520 that affect your present and in some cases hold you from reaching your future. 82 00:07:18.240 --> 00:07:26.960 Because I believe that once they're Tara, I suspect he was triggered by some of the pains. 83 00:07:28.080 --> 00:07:34.560 What was it that stopped him from continuing his journey onto Canaan? What made him stop in 84 00:07:34.560 --> 00:07:38.800 Iran? Because again, there are no insignificant details in the scripture. 85 00:07:38.800 --> 00:07:48.880 Haran was a mountain of sorts and here's the thing. We live in a culture today 86 00:07:51.600 --> 00:08:00.560 with buzzwords of trauma and victimhood, things that happen in the past that hold people from 87 00:08:00.560 --> 00:08:12.800 moving on to their future. Like Tara, many of us are shaped by negative experiences and never 88 00:08:12.800 --> 00:08:21.680 overcome them to discover the destiny that God is calling us to. Too often we stop short refusing 89 00:08:21.680 --> 00:08:27.040 to believe that we can catch our breath and enjoy an abundant life. We succumb to fears and false 90 00:08:27.040 --> 00:08:33.360 perceptions. The enemy defeats us with the lies that bogus down causing us to lose energy and 91 00:08:33.360 --> 00:08:40.800 hope. We get stuck in the doldrums. It's that dead zone from which you can't seem to emerge and 92 00:08:40.800 --> 00:08:49.600 get back on track. I wish that sometimes life came with those big warning signs that they put 93 00:08:49.680 --> 00:08:56.720 on the beach. So it's like, you know, rip tides. Be careful. I wish life had the big ocean level 94 00:08:56.720 --> 00:09:06.800 beach-sive signs that says, life comes with hurts. Keep moving. Because in essence, 95 00:09:08.320 --> 00:09:15.280 what really happens to folks is they experience something and they let that something keep them 96 00:09:15.360 --> 00:09:24.960 in that one spot. Believe it or not, you have interacted with a bunch of zombies on a daily basis. 97 00:09:26.560 --> 00:09:32.560 People that seem to be alive, but they are actually dead. Because although you see them at the 98 00:09:32.560 --> 00:09:37.040 Starbucks and they're buying things and they're trudging around on their Monday mornings, 99 00:09:38.000 --> 00:09:42.320 really they're dead and they're at the place of trauma. They're at the place of impact. They're at 100 00:09:42.400 --> 00:09:49.200 that place of past pain. And you know it when you interact with them because they're not quite 101 00:09:49.200 --> 00:09:57.120 able to live because of what they've experienced. Again, I told you, we live in an age of victimhood 102 00:09:58.000 --> 00:10:02.960 for whatever weird, and I say a weird reason everybody's fighting for the victim chair. 103 00:10:02.960 --> 00:10:08.240 It's like even within families, and one, two, three, go! 104 00:10:12.000 --> 00:10:21.360 Got here first? Because you know my dad left me, and that's why I'm not as successful as I 105 00:10:21.360 --> 00:10:25.760 want to be. And then it's like you get one member of the family's like, kicking the person out 106 00:10:25.760 --> 00:10:29.200 of the chair. No, no, no, no, I want to get in the victim chair because, you know, 107 00:10:30.160 --> 00:10:34.320 well, wait, you already said dad left us, so I can't use that one. So what it is is, you know, 108 00:10:34.320 --> 00:10:42.560 I was raped. And they bring up these horrendous and powerful, and now here's the thing too, 109 00:10:42.560 --> 00:10:49.120 these are powerful experiences, and I don't want you to think that I am minimizing the hurts 110 00:10:49.680 --> 00:10:58.560 and the pains of yesterday. Amen? But I do find that we hold on more to those things 111 00:10:58.560 --> 00:11:05.520 than we actually do the opportunity to get free of them. So many people today 112 00:11:05.520 --> 00:11:11.840 are wrapping their entire existence around something that happened 20 years ago, 113 00:11:13.760 --> 00:11:22.160 and it's stopping you from going forward into your destiny. Did you know that something from 114 00:11:22.240 --> 00:11:30.160 yesterday year can show up and poison your future? You ever talked to somebody? 115 00:11:31.280 --> 00:11:35.200 And you think things are going well, and then you hit a roadblock with them because there's 116 00:11:35.200 --> 00:11:40.720 clearly something in their life that they never got over. You don't have to say, Amen, I know they're 117 00:11:40.720 --> 00:11:51.760 sitting with you. But there is this thing called past pain, and I'm not again, my subtle 118 00:11:51.760 --> 00:11:59.440 invitation to you today is to allow God to bring healing to what you thought was impossible. 119 00:12:02.800 --> 00:12:04.560 It's not going to be a lot of amends today. 120 00:12:13.280 --> 00:12:19.680 We let the past at times define the future and we never move on. 121 00:12:20.640 --> 00:12:25.280 We think we're doing the right thing, but often we're simply doing whatever alleviates pain in some 122 00:12:25.280 --> 00:12:33.680 way. People walk around actively living a life of pain avoidance. But did you know that 123 00:12:33.680 --> 00:12:39.520 you can't heal what you don't reveal? I'll say it again and not just because that was bars 124 00:12:39.520 --> 00:12:46.160 in Iran, but because there's significant truth to it, if you don't reveal the things that can, 125 00:12:46.160 --> 00:12:50.080 and the reason why I say that is because we live in an age of repression. 126 00:12:51.440 --> 00:12:57.040 You went through these things. It actually happened to you. Stop lying to yourself and saying that 127 00:12:57.040 --> 00:13:02.960 it happened to you, whatever that thing may be, whether it be the abuse, whether it be that pain, 128 00:13:02.960 --> 00:13:08.560 whether it be the heartache. Some people get left in relationships end and they refuse to move on 129 00:13:08.560 --> 00:13:12.160 because they can't believe it happened to them, and they lie to themselves and say, no, 130 00:13:12.160 --> 00:13:15.680 it was the other person. It wasn't me. I don't know what happened. No, no, it happened to you. 131 00:13:15.680 --> 00:13:20.960 They left you. You got that divorce. That rape happened. That trauma happened. That abuse. 132 00:13:20.960 --> 00:13:31.920 It actually happened. But the breakthrough and the healing will never come if you don't actually 133 00:13:32.720 --> 00:13:39.840 acknowledge that it happened. And I know this is not a sexy run around and jump because if I 134 00:13:39.840 --> 00:13:46.880 said everybody today is going to get a thousand dollars. You didn't know that. I'm going to get a thousand 135 00:13:46.880 --> 00:13:55.120 dollars danced. It's not that word today, but it is equally as powerful and way more valuable. 136 00:13:56.160 --> 00:14:02.720 If you would actually give space and allow God in to heal the broken parts of yesterday, 137 00:14:02.720 --> 00:14:06.960 here's the thing that I want everyone in here who calls on the name of Christ. If you are a 138 00:14:06.960 --> 00:14:13.040 Christ young, a little Christ, your new image and identity is not in your past failure, 139 00:14:13.040 --> 00:14:18.560 you're not in your past mistake, not in your past trauma. Your new identity is wrapped up in the 140 00:14:18.560 --> 00:14:28.080 victory that is Jesus Christ the Messiah. That's who you really are, not your pain, not your past, 141 00:14:28.080 --> 00:14:31.520 not even the false image that you think of who you are now. 142 00:14:32.400 --> 00:14:39.760 Sometimes people look at me and go, past them all, you're seeing a lot of these things and you 143 00:14:39.760 --> 00:14:44.960 have this confidence and it's probably because of your rugged good looks. It was a fun. 144 00:14:47.680 --> 00:14:55.520 But I tell people all the time, I'm not this confident because of my style and good looks. 145 00:14:55.520 --> 00:14:59.600 I understand it's the burden that I carry. Pray for me. 146 00:15:01.920 --> 00:15:08.560 I'm this confident because the only one person who could ever completely reject me and judge me 147 00:15:08.560 --> 00:15:17.600 has accepted me thoroughly. He says that I am his forever, that I am loved and accepted, well-beloved. 148 00:15:19.200 --> 00:15:25.200 Once you have that, you are free to stop worrying about what other people are thinking, even what 149 00:15:25.200 --> 00:15:29.360 you think about yourself. Because let's be clear, I wake up on some days and I'm like, I don't know, 150 00:15:29.360 --> 00:15:35.760 bro. And God is like, come on, you know what I said. All right, I'm blessed, I'm good looking, 151 00:15:35.760 --> 00:15:42.720 I'm favored, all in you. Listen, sometimes you got to wake up and start the day, not 152 00:15:43.600 --> 00:15:49.840 not declaring what you feel, because some days, I don't know about you, but the Mondays. 153 00:15:49.920 --> 00:15:58.720 I don't know, I don't wake up and say what I feel, I wake up and say what God said. 154 00:15:59.680 --> 00:16:04.720 I am blessed and highly favored, I'm blessed coming in and I'm blessed going out, 155 00:16:04.720 --> 00:16:10.880 I'm blessed in the city, I'm blessed in the field. My children called me blessed. 156 00:16:11.600 --> 00:16:15.200 My wife declares that I am a heartbreaker. 157 00:16:16.960 --> 00:16:17.840 Was it, was the camera? 158 00:16:20.560 --> 00:16:26.640 She's home right now. Her and the kids, they are actively boxing and prepping our entire life 159 00:16:26.640 --> 00:16:28.560 so that we can move to a new place this Wednesday. 160 00:16:28.880 --> 00:16:40.480 But my image, my thought about myself, I'm not getting that 161 00:16:44.160 --> 00:16:51.120 from surface level things in my life. Validation is not coming from these things, 162 00:16:51.120 --> 00:16:55.200 validation is coming from the freedom that only he can provide. 163 00:16:55.920 --> 00:17:04.160 So the invitation today is to get you to actually acknowledge the things that have happened to you 164 00:17:04.160 --> 00:17:11.280 and not just acknowledge them, but actually be willing to ask him to heal those things. 165 00:17:13.040 --> 00:17:21.040 What sense would it make to have a healer on your side? He heals people just by being in their 166 00:17:21.040 --> 00:17:23.760 presence and you wouldn't ask him to take a look at something. 167 00:17:28.160 --> 00:17:36.240 Listen, we know somebody who is a millionaire because of Bitcoin. If you ever had any interest in 168 00:17:36.240 --> 00:17:41.920 Bitcoin, it would be stupid not to go to your friend and go, hey, teach me. 169 00:17:42.640 --> 00:17:49.680 I got embarrassed. Could you stand up, brother? 170 00:17:54.160 --> 00:17:57.200 I'm going to embarrass you further. Could you show me at least one gun? 171 00:17:59.840 --> 00:18:04.320 One gun. Can you show me too? Could you show me, okay, okay. 172 00:18:05.120 --> 00:18:09.520 Now I'm going to share a crazy and wild secret with you. Stand up, stand up, stand up! 173 00:18:11.120 --> 00:18:15.760 So, Cory and I go to the same gym. 174 00:18:20.240 --> 00:18:23.360 It doesn't speak much for his gym. I know. No, no, no, no, no, don't say that. 175 00:18:26.320 --> 00:18:31.600 But there is a difference in how we have utilized the same tools. 176 00:18:31.920 --> 00:18:34.400 Thank you, sir. 177 00:18:39.360 --> 00:18:45.120 Cory went to the gym. Cory learned everything that there was to all of the different machines. 178 00:18:46.160 --> 00:18:51.520 And then he sought help. He found experienced people who knew even more than him so much so 179 00:18:51.520 --> 00:18:59.040 that now he is a trainer of millions. He is a celebrity trainer as we put it in some circles. 180 00:18:59.040 --> 00:19:04.480 You know how like your social media you got like 800 people and you're like, 181 00:19:04.480 --> 00:19:12.000 why people know me? No, he's got millions. But he knows things so often I will call him up 182 00:19:13.440 --> 00:19:17.120 because I know that he knows. Hey, what should I be taking about this? I don't know if you've 183 00:19:17.120 --> 00:19:19.520 noticed, but I'm heading in the right direction, church. 184 00:19:19.520 --> 00:19:29.360 See, some people like the gas, they're like, oh, you know, it's still a little fluffy, but pray. 185 00:19:32.160 --> 00:19:35.200 But understand this, I used to be close to 400 pounds. 186 00:19:36.320 --> 00:19:39.760 When I got married to my wife, when she gave me a hug, her hands didn't touch. 187 00:19:41.280 --> 00:19:48.400 They do now, though. But there was someone in my circle 188 00:19:48.400 --> 00:19:52.640 that had a greater knowledge than me that could help me come into breakthrough. 189 00:19:54.000 --> 00:20:01.120 You have access to the God of heaven that knows all things and has a heart and a desire to bless you. 190 00:20:02.320 --> 00:20:09.120 Why are you continuing to let your trauma and your pain from yesterday define you instead of 191 00:20:09.120 --> 00:20:15.200 going to the God who can set you free and asking him to bring deliverance and freedom? 192 00:20:18.480 --> 00:20:20.640 Does anybody actually want to be free? 193 00:20:24.960 --> 00:20:28.640 Because there are certain things that happen in life that you should not want 194 00:20:29.520 --> 00:20:32.480 nor stomach if you have the ability to not do it. 195 00:20:32.480 --> 00:20:42.560 Hallelujah. 196 00:20:46.880 --> 00:20:51.200 When we reach a debilitating place and the thoughts and the hurts of yesterday, 197 00:20:52.480 --> 00:20:57.200 it's as the land of Heron was for terror. And one of the things we need is openness and honesty. 198 00:20:57.520 --> 00:21:04.560 We need to put ourselves in a place where we can rely on others and invite in the 199 00:21:04.560 --> 00:21:06.240 breakthrough, invite in the healing. 200 00:21:13.280 --> 00:21:18.640 I think every one of us at some point can think to different situations of pain 201 00:21:20.080 --> 00:21:21.840 that you've gone through. And here's the thing. 202 00:21:22.080 --> 00:21:29.120 It doesn't have to be as severe and traumatic as an instance like rape. 203 00:21:30.880 --> 00:21:34.720 I don't care if you were in the second grade and they called you buckethead for three years. 204 00:21:37.360 --> 00:21:40.640 At some point, that took an effect on you. 205 00:21:42.720 --> 00:21:46.000 I don't know what it was that you got to the seventh grade and you just believed that man, 206 00:21:46.000 --> 00:21:51.040 I'm buckethead, my head big and I'm so ugly I got to cover it with a bucket, please God. 207 00:21:52.480 --> 00:21:56.000 I'm going to be single forever because you know all buckethead, please God. 208 00:22:00.080 --> 00:22:04.560 Or how about this? You grew up in a family of alcoholics so you feel like your only option is to 209 00:22:04.560 --> 00:22:13.600 be an alcoholic. You are not what you experienced. You are not even where you come from. 210 00:22:16.080 --> 00:22:21.360 Out of the mouth of babes. 211 00:22:24.720 --> 00:22:30.800 You're not those things. And here's the thing. For the strong person, I go, well that's not me at all. 212 00:22:30.800 --> 00:22:34.560 I don't got none of them. The patch hurts you. Nobody touched me because if they did, 213 00:22:36.960 --> 00:22:43.760 I go, all right. But the one thing that I know that every one of us share, even if we don't 214 00:22:43.760 --> 00:22:51.680 share the particular traumas is we all make mistakes and sometimes those mistakes are so devastating 215 00:22:51.680 --> 00:22:59.280 that we can't get past them. Has anybody ever been divorced? Can I just remind you that your life 216 00:22:59.280 --> 00:23:06.960 is not over? Can I give you hope that God has more in store for you despite, come and listen. 217 00:23:07.200 --> 00:23:14.080 All these different things that we encounter, the pains, the heartbreaks, the mistakes, the sin, 218 00:23:16.080 --> 00:23:18.480 it's not over just because you experience that thing. 219 00:23:21.680 --> 00:23:22.880 Prasmussah! 220 00:23:30.640 --> 00:23:34.960 Listen, we have to make sure, don't worry, she'll be paid after. 221 00:23:37.920 --> 00:23:44.480 We have to make sure that we're not letting the baggage of yesterday continue to hinder us, 222 00:23:44.480 --> 00:23:49.680 but here's the thing too, you also are in danger of polluting your current relationships. 223 00:23:51.360 --> 00:23:57.680 Your baggage from yesterday will make it so that you ruin your future, or your present and your 224 00:23:57.680 --> 00:24:03.760 future with other people. Listen, how many of you have ever been on family trips before? 225 00:24:03.760 --> 00:24:08.560 It doesn't even have to be family trips. You haven't been on a girl's trip, you haven't been 226 00:24:08.560 --> 00:24:19.200 on a guy's trip. There's always the one friend. Everybody packs a simple carry-on, roll it through 227 00:24:19.200 --> 00:24:23.040 a little, put it in the overhead, sit down, have a good time, wear my peanuts. 228 00:24:24.640 --> 00:24:29.760 But there's always that one person. We only go for three days, everybody only got the one carry-on, 229 00:24:29.760 --> 00:24:36.560 they got two suitcases full, they got the huge duffel bag, and now this portion, you give them 230 00:24:36.560 --> 00:24:39.840 the duffel bag, and they're fighting to get this thing inside, and you're just sitting, 231 00:24:40.880 --> 00:24:45.680 drinking a little diet coat. So now you've got to check your two huge bags, 232 00:24:47.200 --> 00:24:50.720 fight the lady to get this thing on the inside, because it probably should have been checked too. 233 00:24:51.840 --> 00:24:55.760 And now we all get off the plane, because we're ready to go, Jetset, hey, let's go! 234 00:24:56.720 --> 00:25:03.280 And we got to wait for you. You notice I have to remain laughing because they're the one? 235 00:25:05.520 --> 00:25:09.520 Well, I don't think the pastor needs to be talking about me like that. Well, maybe you need to stop 236 00:25:09.520 --> 00:25:19.040 being that way. So now the whole everybody, the whole retina of people, we now have to wait 237 00:25:19.600 --> 00:25:26.480 as this carousel waiting for your bags. God forbid, I've never lost my luggage, but I've been with 238 00:25:26.480 --> 00:25:31.360 people who have, and it's not like you can just abandon them in international waters and go figure 239 00:25:31.360 --> 00:25:37.680 it out, meet me where we're going, bro! It's not the Christian thing to do, although your mind tells 240 00:25:37.680 --> 00:25:44.400 you it is the appropriate thing to do. But when they are there and they've lost their luggage, 241 00:25:44.400 --> 00:25:48.400 and now we got to figure that out before we make our connection and go where we're going, 242 00:25:49.040 --> 00:25:54.880 they have now affected you, or for this story, that's you affecting them, praise God. 243 00:25:57.120 --> 00:26:04.960 Your baggage can affect other people. Did you know, again, and I say this so many times because I 244 00:26:04.960 --> 00:26:10.000 pray that you get it, God made you to be a key that opens the prison cell to somebody else's door. 245 00:26:10.560 --> 00:26:17.120 But the problem is, when you don't allow God to bring you to that place of healing and 246 00:26:17.120 --> 00:26:22.080 wholeness, you cause more people to be locked up than you caused them to be free. 247 00:26:30.400 --> 00:26:35.040 I love Aze, Oive. No, listen, I get it. It's not going to be a lot of A-Mids. I'll take 248 00:26:35.040 --> 00:26:39.200 an Oive. I think it out, as well. I've been in that point with my speech and I'm like, 249 00:26:39.920 --> 00:26:44.480 you need a back off. It's like, sir, I'm not talking to you. Yes, you are. 250 00:26:51.520 --> 00:26:55.440 The same is true for us. The more baggage we carry with us, the more it slows us down and our 251 00:26:55.440 --> 00:27:00.640 relationships are affected. When we can't handle our own issues and constantly force everyone 252 00:27:00.640 --> 00:27:05.840 else to deal with them too. Our wounds get transferred to the people close to us and unless they 253 00:27:05.840 --> 00:27:12.000 are vigilant, vigilant, excuse me, and correctly know how to handle us, the pain becomes contagious 254 00:27:12.000 --> 00:27:17.840 and it compounds into heartache. We make decisions that aren't good for us and it creates 255 00:27:17.840 --> 00:27:22.400 defense systems that ensure that we're never hurt in the same way again. We become controlling 256 00:27:22.400 --> 00:27:28.240 and rigid, suspicious, and skeptical of others motives. Our insecurities accumulate from an 257 00:27:28.240 --> 00:27:35.600 ocean wave into a tsunami of paranoia, fear, and distrust. And it's crazy because the tragic 258 00:27:35.600 --> 00:27:40.720 result of unresolved pain is not only the effect it has on the horizontal, but it even effects 259 00:27:40.720 --> 00:27:50.080 our vertical. He's a funny part about terrorist story. He stops at his pain and you never hear 260 00:27:50.080 --> 00:27:56.960 of him again. You never hear about him in conjunction with the promises of God. You never hear 261 00:27:56.960 --> 00:28:07.200 about him period. We don't want that to be our life. I want them singing goofy songs about me 262 00:28:07.920 --> 00:28:17.760 because Father Abraham, amen, he's up, amen, he's up, amen. All right. As you can tell, VBS is fresh, 263 00:28:17.920 --> 00:28:27.520 fresh. But I don't want my story to end. Not with God. I want a rich, vibrant relationship with him 264 00:28:27.520 --> 00:28:32.560 that goes and spans all the generations of my life, that all of my children's children will be 265 00:28:32.560 --> 00:28:42.880 connected to him. And I want to give you something. This is going to be fun because this is not just 266 00:28:43.360 --> 00:28:48.320 let me tell you what's wrong with you. It's not that type of message. God calls us and tells us 267 00:28:48.320 --> 00:28:53.040 that we have to let go of the traumas of yesterday, right? But he gives us the solution on how to 268 00:28:53.040 --> 00:28:58.080 get there. The only problem is the solution that he gave us to get there is one that actually 269 00:28:58.080 --> 00:29:09.920 annoys you. It's people. I knew it was coming. I knew it. People, I've been trying to get away from 270 00:29:09.920 --> 00:29:18.000 people all day, past them all. I'm well aware. I saw you time it just so perfectly. 271 00:29:19.840 --> 00:29:27.680 One, two, three. All right. Second song. Let's get it. Right there. Oh, Mauricio almost got me. 272 00:29:30.400 --> 00:29:34.160 You know the deacons. They smile hard, man. They full of the holy ghosts. So when you come in, 273 00:29:34.160 --> 00:29:43.920 you got to like, you know, our deacons, they are filled with love and they will come for you. 274 00:29:45.040 --> 00:29:49.760 Like if you're into this isolationist thing where you just want to come and not see anybody and 275 00:29:49.760 --> 00:29:55.120 not be provoked and not be loved on and have people inquire about you, you are in the wrong place. 276 00:29:57.520 --> 00:30:02.240 Literally from the door, like I remember one time, I watched this happen in real time. 277 00:30:02.320 --> 00:30:06.480 I invited somebody to church and I didn't play the whole thing where I was going to wait at the door, 278 00:30:06.480 --> 00:30:12.640 like, listen, I told you what time to be here. Get here. And I look back and I watch them get 279 00:30:12.640 --> 00:30:17.600 confronted by our volunteers. And when I say confronted, it was in the most loving way possible, 280 00:30:17.600 --> 00:30:23.920 but they brought them in and they made them feel loved from the jump so much so that they 281 00:30:23.920 --> 00:30:32.400 testified to me later like, yo, I feel like I can make friends here. That's one of the most 282 00:30:32.400 --> 00:30:37.360 powerful things you can say about a church. And I hear people say that about city light all the time. 283 00:30:38.240 --> 00:30:43.040 But the thing is, some people don't realize that people are the breakthrough. 284 00:30:45.280 --> 00:30:50.560 Because when you think about, well, how do I get free of my past hurts from yesterday? Your 285 00:30:50.560 --> 00:30:55.840 mind doesn't often think I need more people in my life. Because what you're really thinking is, 286 00:30:55.840 --> 00:31:00.560 I need less people to hurt me less so that I can be free to seek after God. 287 00:31:06.320 --> 00:31:14.800 I am saying what you have thought. You need more people. You need more people that are filled with 288 00:31:14.800 --> 00:31:20.000 the Holy Ghost. Notice I didn't say you need more perfect people because they don't exist. 289 00:31:25.920 --> 00:31:32.080 Because if in some way you actually found a perfect church, you messed it up the minute you walked in. 290 00:31:36.080 --> 00:31:37.680 Maybe you'll get that for the third surface. 291 00:31:38.480 --> 00:31:46.320 God actually intended people to be a source of life, a community of support and fellowship, 292 00:31:46.320 --> 00:31:50.800 taking care of one another, bringing healing and freedom. I want to show you something in the 293 00:31:50.800 --> 00:31:59.920 scriptures. John 1143. Now, worship team, get ready. We're going to wrap up soon. 294 00:32:00.880 --> 00:32:04.240 Now, when he had said these things, he cried with a loud voice. 295 00:32:04.240 --> 00:32:05.440 Lazarus! 296 00:32:06.880 --> 00:32:13.120 Come forth. I always loved the little distinctions that the scripture makes because Jesus 297 00:32:13.120 --> 00:32:18.320 understanding what was at stake made sure that he had to yell Lazarus's name or it would be full 298 00:32:18.320 --> 00:32:23.920 on zombie apocalypse on the earth. Because he's standing in front of a cemetery with a bunch of 299 00:32:23.920 --> 00:32:28.160 dead people and he can't just say come forth because there's life on the inside of him, 300 00:32:28.160 --> 00:32:31.760 this power of life and death and the power of the tongue and those that love it shall eat the 301 00:32:31.760 --> 00:32:35.760 fruit thereof. And he knows if he says, come forth, the whole place breaks out. So yes, 302 00:32:35.760 --> 00:32:43.760 the specimen, oh, not over you. Sit down. Okay. Lazarus, come forth. All right. 303 00:32:45.200 --> 00:32:51.840 And he who had died came out bound hand and foot with grave clothes and his face was wrapped with 304 00:32:51.840 --> 00:32:58.880 a cloth. Jesus said to them, loosen him and let him go. So think about this brilliant picture. 305 00:32:59.920 --> 00:33:07.360 God does what God does. God does what only God can do. He literally takes that which is dead 306 00:33:07.920 --> 00:33:13.040 and resurrects it and brings it to life. That is a whole separate message that a priest, 307 00:33:13.040 --> 00:33:17.360 is there any dead thing in your life that you think can't live? 308 00:33:18.240 --> 00:33:23.840 One of the visions and the dreams that you thought have died. I'm here to tell you God can bring 309 00:33:23.840 --> 00:33:30.000 those suckers back to life. One of the relationships that have been killed and broken and hurt and 310 00:33:30.000 --> 00:33:35.040 you think, man, I will be single and lonely forever. No, you won't if you allow God in. 311 00:33:36.320 --> 00:33:41.840 You know, there's a very interesting Bible trivia fact. Nobody ever died in the presence of Jesus. 312 00:33:42.560 --> 00:33:48.800 The thieves on the cross were crucified. It's the most excruciating death 313 00:33:49.360 --> 00:33:55.840 humans have ever created. It's actually where we get the term excruciating from the crucifixion. 314 00:33:57.840 --> 00:34:04.080 Even those two couldn't die until Jesus left the building. He showed up to funerals and the 315 00:34:04.080 --> 00:34:11.760 dead person couldn't stay dead. If there's anything dead in your life, he can. 316 00:34:16.320 --> 00:34:20.000 All right. Don't get me too excited. Don't get to the point. Don't get me too excited. 317 00:34:22.080 --> 00:34:30.880 Yes, God does what God does. But take notice of what he said. Lazarus comes out. Lazarus is 318 00:34:30.880 --> 00:34:35.840 literally wrapped up in burial clothes. He looked like a mummy. There were pieces of strips of 319 00:34:35.840 --> 00:34:41.360 linen that had different ointments just to subside some of the stench and things of that nature and 320 00:34:41.360 --> 00:34:48.080 is a grave napkin that was tied around his head. So the actual picture of what it looked like is 321 00:34:48.080 --> 00:34:56.640 he said Lazarus come forth and Lazarus was like, oh wait, no, no, I got to make it right. 322 00:35:01.120 --> 00:35:11.760 But it's crazy, crazy, crazy because it points the picture to what I'm talking about today. Jesus 323 00:35:11.760 --> 00:35:19.120 doesn't, excuse me, brother. You want to take all that anointing today? That's you. No, no, no, 324 00:35:19.120 --> 00:35:24.720 you want to take it. I said you want to take it. Jesus doesn't come and go, okay, let's take off 325 00:35:24.800 --> 00:35:30.640 the first strip. Let's take off the second strip. Jesus doesn't do that. Jesus does what God can 326 00:35:30.640 --> 00:35:40.800 only do and he raises him to life. But then he gives the job to the church. He raises him to life 327 00:35:40.800 --> 00:35:47.600 and then he says, lose him and let him go. You do it. The church, you do it. 328 00:35:48.560 --> 00:35:53.920 Be the sandpaper. You ever notice you have a whole sandpaper in your hand? I know, 329 00:35:53.920 --> 00:36:00.400 not everybody's a home depot type of guy. I get it. But it's that rough course thing. One thing 330 00:36:00.400 --> 00:36:07.440 that I've learned about being in ministry is that people are funny. You've learned it too by being 331 00:36:07.440 --> 00:36:13.200 a person dealing with other people. People are like sandpaper. They're so rough and grating and 332 00:36:13.200 --> 00:36:17.120 annoying. But there's something about that type of roughness that when it gets on you, you end 333 00:36:17.120 --> 00:36:22.080 up being smooth. And you don't realize it because you never think of yourself as anything but 334 00:36:22.080 --> 00:36:26.640 perfect, but you're rough too. And your roughness brings out the smoothness and other people. 335 00:36:27.760 --> 00:36:34.320 And God knowing this raises this man to life and then he calls him and says, church, 336 00:36:36.480 --> 00:36:43.040 set him free. I've brought him the life but now the job of discipleship, the job of accountability, 337 00:36:43.040 --> 00:36:48.320 the job of community, that's yours. You take off the grave clothes. I gotta go get lunch. 338 00:36:52.320 --> 00:36:57.120 The freedom that you're looking for, the freedom that you need God to give you. I guarantee 339 00:36:57.120 --> 00:37:03.760 here's the thing. I want you to ask God into your life so that he can take and first off reveal 340 00:37:03.760 --> 00:37:09.280 to you the hurts from yesterday, right? And ask him, Lord, heal these hurts from yesterday that 341 00:37:09.280 --> 00:37:14.960 you've revealed to my heart. Regardless of how severe or minuscule they are, ask him in and say, 342 00:37:14.960 --> 00:37:19.360 God, reveal these things to me. And now that you reveal these things to me and how they're impacting 343 00:37:19.360 --> 00:37:24.240 me and not allowing me to go forward, I want you to heal it. But here's the funny part. I guarantee 344 00:37:24.240 --> 00:37:32.000 part of that healing and that solution will be people. This is why we want everybody to connect. 345 00:37:32.000 --> 00:37:37.200 This is why we want people to have a place where they can find healing and love and safety and 346 00:37:37.200 --> 00:37:48.800 support. Don't shun the people factor because God will bring amazing revelation, freedom and peace 347 00:37:48.800 --> 00:38:01.120 to you through other people. I'm always fascinated by Paul shout out to his friend 348 00:38:02.080 --> 00:38:07.600 on a on a cipherus when he described, he described this man as a breath of fresh air. 349 00:38:08.800 --> 00:38:15.760 Let me read this to you. This is 2 Timothy 116. It says, may the Lord bless ones cipherus 350 00:38:16.320 --> 00:38:22.720 and all his family because he visited me and encouraged me often. His visits revived me like a 351 00:38:22.720 --> 00:38:33.360 breath of fresh air and he was never ashamed of my being in jail. My challenge to you is to 352 00:38:33.360 --> 00:38:40.560 let the Lord in but then my challenge is also to allow him to use you in such a way that you become 353 00:38:40.560 --> 00:38:48.080 the key to their prison door. That you be that breath of fresh air. That you not shun the 354 00:38:48.080 --> 00:38:55.840 uncomfortability of dealing with imperfect people because as you keep endeavoring to do this thing 355 00:38:55.840 --> 00:39:04.000 called community, the more you keep rubbing shoulders with people, it's actually going to reveal 356 00:39:04.000 --> 00:39:11.520 the parts that are broken and hurt. Help me Luke. So I'm talking about rubbing shoulders, right? 357 00:39:12.480 --> 00:39:18.640 This is why God brings accountability. This is why he wants community because it brings out the 358 00:39:18.640 --> 00:39:27.680 things that we don't think we need because fellowship is this. We're brothers, we're singing, and we're 359 00:39:30.080 --> 00:39:36.320 rubbing shoulders. But here's the thing, when we rub shoulders, often this is what it looks like. 360 00:39:36.960 --> 00:39:47.920 Ah, man, you rub too hard, bro. Stop. Now, that looks like a very inordinate reaction 361 00:39:48.960 --> 00:39:56.640 to a simple brushing of shoulders because what if I'm wounded underneath my clothes and he doesn't know? 362 00:39:57.760 --> 00:40:03.600 So sometimes we're wounded and we don't even realize it but it gets exposed because we rub 363 00:40:03.680 --> 00:40:10.480 shoulders and then, ah, and now if he's a true friend, if he's a true lover of Christ who's looking 364 00:40:10.480 --> 00:40:15.920 for not just his benefit, but my benefit, he's going to be like, what do you got going on 365 00:40:15.920 --> 00:40:20.160 under there, bro? Because that was a little bit too, like you screaming at me now. That was a bit 366 00:40:20.160 --> 00:40:24.400 too much of a reaction for something really little that we could have forgave and moved past and 367 00:40:24.400 --> 00:40:31.680 went into got some chicken. So let me know. And that's the thing, and thank you, bro. That's the 368 00:40:31.680 --> 00:40:39.920 thing about accountability. Like it exposes the hurts. It exposes the parts where, now these are 369 00:40:39.920 --> 00:40:48.560 the things that make you get real honest and brutal with God. So God, I had some interactions this 370 00:40:48.560 --> 00:40:54.240 week and they seem to look like a lot of the interactions that I've had in the past in my life 371 00:40:54.880 --> 00:41:02.800 where for some reason, when I get close to people, I kind of turn into a rageaholic 372 00:41:04.880 --> 00:41:09.600 and I don't really treat people the right way. So I'm just wondering, is there something 373 00:41:10.640 --> 00:41:16.320 that this is connected to in my past that maybe you want to highlight to me? Because I came to be, 374 00:41:16.320 --> 00:41:21.120 I seem to kind of keep pushing people away and I know that you've called me to community and 375 00:41:21.200 --> 00:41:28.480 life. So you got anything? That's the type of honesty that you need to come to God with. 376 00:41:28.480 --> 00:41:35.200 Why am I such a jerk? Why is it that after every interaction people keep doing this? 377 00:41:38.240 --> 00:41:42.080 What does that face mean, Jesus? Is something wrong with them? 378 00:41:42.160 --> 00:41:48.720 Okay, okay, you don't have to answer. I know you brought the person with you. 379 00:41:50.240 --> 00:41:53.600 Just look down. No, don't look down. Don't look down. Look at me. 380 00:42:03.840 --> 00:42:08.000 I gained a new level of appreciation for that type of friendship because it exposed me to the 381 00:42:08.080 --> 00:42:15.120 things that I wouldn't honestly admit about myself. Yo, getting married was dope and not just because 382 00:42:15.120 --> 00:42:23.600 you get a license to have sex. You hit that clap, that's a newly married person in the back. Yeah, 383 00:42:24.880 --> 00:42:33.440 it was dope. All right, slow down. But the more powerful part about marriage, 384 00:42:34.080 --> 00:42:42.640 I have somebody to call me out on the BS. I have somebody that wakes up with me every day and 385 00:42:42.640 --> 00:42:47.920 sees me and knows me when I'm in a funk and in an attitude for no reason going, you good? 386 00:42:50.640 --> 00:42:58.480 Well, because you're being a jerk. Oh, okay. See, real friends will tell you the truth about 387 00:42:58.480 --> 00:43:05.040 yourself and go, hey, you seem to be overreacting to things that are very minimal and not deserving 388 00:43:05.040 --> 00:43:11.280 of this reaction. Maybe we need to take a look at that. Let's have a talk. Let's pray together. 389 00:43:11.280 --> 00:43:18.880 Let's fast together. Let's get some freedom on this thing. That's what God is calling you to. 390 00:43:18.880 --> 00:43:27.040 Oh, hallelujah. 391 00:43:36.880 --> 00:43:41.760 If you want to find freedom from the wounds of the past, the first place to begin is by identifying 392 00:43:41.760 --> 00:43:48.960 the issues, the hurts, the past bagages that are weighing you down, invite him into heal these 393 00:43:48.960 --> 00:44:05.280 areas and don't be surprised when he uses people to do it. Don't limit yourself in how you see 394 00:44:05.280 --> 00:44:11.760 yourself. Don't see yourself according to the things that you've been through and experienced. 395 00:44:11.760 --> 00:44:14.720 See yourself according to what God says about you, amen? 396 00:44:19.520 --> 00:44:25.360 It is never easy to be honest about your mistakes, your secrets, your flaws, or your sinful behaviors, 397 00:44:25.360 --> 00:44:30.800 but in order to receive God's grace, peace, and joy, you have to let go of your fear, your shame, 398 00:44:30.880 --> 00:44:38.880 and anger. In the Bible, we know how King David knew he had disobeyed God, but couldn't come the 399 00:44:38.880 --> 00:44:45.520 terms with the fact that he had committed adultery with Bathsheba and had her husband, Uriah killed 400 00:44:45.520 --> 00:44:52.160 to cover up the sin. Only after the prophet Nathan rebuked him, did the king confess before God 401 00:44:52.160 --> 00:44:57.440 and repent of his sins. Now, one of the things that you're going to have to do, I'm going to read 402 00:44:57.520 --> 00:45:01.120 you a scripture, but then I'm going to give you a disclaimer that goes with that and we're going 403 00:45:01.120 --> 00:45:09.600 to close for the day. James 516 says this, confess your trespasses to one another and pray for one 404 00:45:09.600 --> 00:45:16.480 another that you may be healed. The effective fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. 405 00:45:17.520 --> 00:45:23.280 We confess our sins not only to God, but also to each other. This system provides spiritual support 406 00:45:23.360 --> 00:45:28.640 as we pray for each other and help each other, which facilitates healing. Notice the big picture here. 407 00:45:28.640 --> 00:45:31.840 We go to God for forgiveness, but we come to the church for healing. 408 00:45:34.960 --> 00:45:38.720 But this is the disclaimer. This is ain't for everybody. 409 00:45:41.360 --> 00:45:47.120 What do I mean? When it says confess your sins to everybody, these are to the mature 410 00:45:47.120 --> 00:45:52.960 individuals in which you can fight and trust. Don't just be walking up to my first time, 411 00:45:52.960 --> 00:45:57.120 guess, talking about, yeah, remember, I can kill these three people before in Bronx, you know what I'm saying? 412 00:46:05.840 --> 00:46:11.760 No, the people that you can fight in as a leadership, the people that you can fight in to 413 00:46:11.760 --> 00:46:16.240 call actual friends, you confess to those people that the people who do life with you. 414 00:46:19.360 --> 00:46:23.440 Don't just be calling up random people talking about, yeah, you know, I use to smack my wife in 415 00:46:23.440 --> 00:46:26.240 everything, but we good now. She punched me back, so I learned. 416 00:46:31.840 --> 00:46:40.400 We welcome you to enter community, but to be wise, to let the Lord use the people of God to 417 00:46:40.400 --> 00:46:48.560 bring healing to your life. Be open and honest and allow him in, amen? I'm going to read you this 418 00:46:48.560 --> 00:46:54.720 last Psalm, and then the sweet Psalmist is going to play us some some some some sweet summary. 419 00:46:57.680 --> 00:47:01.840 In Psalm 51, David expresses the cries of his heart after recognizing the depth of his 420 00:47:01.840 --> 00:47:08.400 transgression. As we read through this passage, think about the one issue or the one person or the 421 00:47:08.400 --> 00:47:14.400 one wound or the struggle that comes to mind. Make David's words the prayer of your heart as you 422 00:47:14.400 --> 00:47:19.360 seek forgiveness, as you seek to accept more of the grace of God, as you seek to receive a fresh 423 00:47:19.360 --> 00:47:26.960 start in the freedom that God is giving you, amen? Have mercy upon me, everybody close your eyes 424 00:47:26.960 --> 00:47:33.920 and rock with me. Have mercy upon me, oh God, according to your loving kindness. According to 425 00:47:33.920 --> 00:47:39.280 the multitude of your tender mercies, blood out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my 426 00:47:39.280 --> 00:47:46.080 iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I acknowledge my transgressions and my sin is always before me. 427 00:47:46.080 --> 00:47:52.160 Against you, you only have I sinned and done this evil in your sight that you may be found just 428 00:47:52.160 --> 00:47:58.560 when you speak and blameless when you judge. Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity and in sin, 429 00:47:58.560 --> 00:48:04.400 my mother conceived me. Behold, you desire truth in the inward parts and in the hidden part, 430 00:48:04.400 --> 00:48:11.840 you will make me to know wisdom, purge me with his own and I shall be clean. Wash me and I shall be 431 00:48:11.840 --> 00:48:18.160 wider than snow. Make me hear joy and gladness that the bones that you have broken may rejoice. 432 00:48:18.160 --> 00:48:25.680 Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquities. Create in me a clean heart, oh God, 433 00:48:25.680 --> 00:48:31.440 and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from your presence and do not take 434 00:48:31.440 --> 00:48:37.760 your holy spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and uphold me by your generous 435 00:48:37.760 --> 00:48:42.400 spirit that I will teach transgressions your ways and sinners will be converted to you. 436 00:48:43.040 --> 00:48:48.720 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, oh God, the God of my salvation and my tongue shall sing 437 00:48:48.720 --> 00:48:54.400 aloud of your righteousness. O Lord, open my lips and my mouth shall show forth your praise. 438 00:48:58.400 --> 00:49:07.200 As we sing this song, reflect on God and let him show you the areas that need healing. 439 00:49:09.440 --> 00:49:15.280 Be blessed, church. Again, we're not taking off for this summer. We're going higher and deeper into 440 00:49:15.280 --> 00:49:23.280 God and part of that includes getting free. This is the City Light Church podcast. If you've missed 441 00:49:23.280 --> 00:49:28.400 any part of today's message or if you would like to find out more about Pastor Boyan Jansik in City 442 00:49:28.400 --> 00:49:37.440 Light Church, visit us at citylightnyc.com that's citylightnyc.com. Feel free to visit us online or in 443 00:49:37.440 --> 00:49:43.840 person anytime. We would love to connect with you. We pray that you have been encouraged today, 444 00:49:43.840 --> 00:49:49.040 that you have been reminded how much God loves you and that you are surrounded by grace. 445 00:49:49.760 --> 00:49:54.720 Thank you for listening. Make sure that you subscribe to City Light Church podcast wherever you find 446 00:49:54.720 --> 00:50:00.240 your favorite podcasts worldwide.