WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:04.800 Being transparent, that is what I'm, you know, working on right now in an effort to make better stuff for you guys 2 00:00:05.200 --> 00:00:09.840 because I want to ideally suck less in the future than I do today. 3 00:00:11.440 --> 00:00:13.760 Welcome to the game where we talk about how to get more customers, 4 00:00:13.760 --> 00:00:15.760 how to make more customers, how to keep them longer, 5 00:00:15.760 --> 00:00:18.240 and the many failures and lessons we have learned along the way. 6 00:00:18.240 --> 00:00:19.520 I hope you enjoy and subscribe. 7 00:00:21.200 --> 00:00:22.160 What's going on everyone? 8 00:00:22.160 --> 00:00:25.760 I'm going to talk about a handful of interviews that are recently bombed 9 00:00:25.760 --> 00:00:29.040 and what I'm doing to try and fix that. 10 00:00:29.040 --> 00:00:30.880 So if you don't know who I am, my name is Alex Mosey. 11 00:00:30.880 --> 00:00:34.800 I own acquisition.com, which is a portfolio of companies that right now 12 00:00:34.800 --> 00:00:36.240 does over $100 million a year. 13 00:00:36.240 --> 00:00:39.280 And I make these to hopefully document the journey of us getting to a billion 14 00:00:39.280 --> 00:00:41.280 in a way that hopefully serves you guys. 15 00:00:41.280 --> 00:00:46.480 And so I recently, I think, in my own, by my own terms, bombed a couple of interviews. 16 00:00:46.480 --> 00:00:50.400 And it's been a kind of rough 24 hours for me. 17 00:00:50.400 --> 00:00:54.800 And I honestly would have never had any intention of making a video about it. 18 00:00:54.800 --> 00:00:57.120 But Layla was like, I think you should share the stuff with the audience 19 00:00:57.120 --> 00:00:59.040 because they will probably benefit from it. 20 00:00:59.040 --> 00:00:59.920 So here I am. 21 00:00:59.920 --> 00:01:03.440 So I am feeling not 100% to be transparent with you. 22 00:01:03.440 --> 00:01:07.920 And I honestly just felt like I got kicked in the nuts the last day or so. 23 00:01:07.920 --> 00:01:11.280 And it happened because Layla and I did an interview 24 00:01:11.280 --> 00:01:13.920 with Ryan Pinedo and his podcast. 25 00:01:13.920 --> 00:01:18.560 And after getting off the interview, you know, 26 00:01:18.560 --> 00:01:22.080 Layla, when we were walking around our daily loop, 27 00:01:22.080 --> 00:01:25.440 she was like, hey, are you trying to come off a certain way? 28 00:01:25.520 --> 00:01:29.040 And I just kind of looked at her as like, I mean, not consciously. 29 00:01:29.040 --> 00:01:29.360 Why? 30 00:01:29.360 --> 00:01:33.040 And she's like, well, you're coming off like ultra analytical 31 00:01:33.040 --> 00:01:36.640 and not like as fun. 32 00:01:38.000 --> 00:01:40.240 And I was like, well, that's not, you know, my hope. 33 00:01:40.240 --> 00:01:43.040 And she didn't say it, but I think part of it was also like, 34 00:01:43.040 --> 00:01:44.320 and probably a little prideful. 35 00:01:44.320 --> 00:01:45.760 And I was like, well, that sucks. 36 00:01:45.760 --> 00:01:49.120 And like I take Layla's feedback more seriously than just about anybody 37 00:01:49.120 --> 00:01:50.880 because I trust her intentions. 38 00:01:50.880 --> 00:01:52.720 You know, most people have an ulterior motive, 39 00:01:52.720 --> 00:01:54.480 which is one of those difficult things in terms of like, 40 00:01:54.560 --> 00:01:55.920 who do you trust for feedback? 41 00:01:55.920 --> 00:01:58.640 But I trust my wife's motives that she just wants me, 42 00:01:58.640 --> 00:01:59.600 you know, to be better. 43 00:01:59.600 --> 00:02:01.440 And she said, hey, to be clear, if that's what you want, 44 00:02:01.440 --> 00:02:03.280 then I'm not saying it's bad. 45 00:02:03.280 --> 00:02:04.880 I accept whatever you want. 46 00:02:04.880 --> 00:02:06.640 I don't know if that's what your intention is. 47 00:02:06.640 --> 00:02:09.360 And so I was pretty quiet for the rest of the walk home 48 00:02:09.360 --> 00:02:11.120 and just really kind of kept mulling on it. 49 00:02:11.120 --> 00:02:14.240 It did bug me a lot because one of the things that scares me 50 00:02:14.240 --> 00:02:18.320 is when I'm, you know, coming off in a way that I'm not aware of. 51 00:02:18.320 --> 00:02:18.880 You know what I mean? 52 00:02:18.880 --> 00:02:20.560 And so it feels like a blind spot. 53 00:02:20.560 --> 00:02:23.040 And it just, it feels very out of control 54 00:02:23.200 --> 00:02:24.160 for lack of a better term. 55 00:02:24.160 --> 00:02:27.520 And so anyways, that was pretty, you know, not fun. 56 00:02:27.520 --> 00:02:30.320 And then this morning I got a message from our team 57 00:02:30.320 --> 00:02:32.400 that edits the podcasts for us. 58 00:02:32.400 --> 00:02:34.640 And he was like, hey, and I had done a podcast yesterday 59 00:02:34.640 --> 00:02:36.480 as well, so I did two podcasts yesterday. 60 00:02:36.480 --> 00:02:38.400 And I did a Spartan Up podcast. 61 00:02:38.400 --> 00:02:40.720 And on that podcast, I don't know. 62 00:02:40.720 --> 00:02:43.720 It's just, I wasn't, Joan, I were not vibing. 63 00:02:43.720 --> 00:02:45.200 Erlies, I didn't think we were. 64 00:02:45.200 --> 00:02:47.600 I think I came off like a little bit of a douchebag. 65 00:02:47.600 --> 00:02:52.160 And I felt like it was off even during the podcast. 66 00:02:52.320 --> 00:02:54.640 But anyways, when my podcast editor this morning came up 67 00:02:54.640 --> 00:02:58.240 because he like saw the footage, he was like, you know, 68 00:02:58.240 --> 00:02:59.840 and he's trying to do this. 69 00:02:59.840 --> 00:03:01.800 It's like tastefully as he possibly can. 70 00:03:01.800 --> 00:03:03.440 For lack of a better term, he was like, you know, 71 00:03:03.440 --> 00:03:04.560 you kind of sound like a dick. 72 00:03:04.560 --> 00:03:09.240 And you were, you know, it sounds kind of sending. 73 00:03:09.240 --> 00:03:11.440 And you're talking above the audience. 74 00:03:11.440 --> 00:03:13.440 You're not really serving anyone. 75 00:03:13.440 --> 00:03:16.720 And that was, that one really kind of like drilled me in the nuts 76 00:03:16.720 --> 00:03:18.640 because it was right after I heard it from Leila 77 00:03:18.640 --> 00:03:19.280 and heard it from him. 78 00:03:19.280 --> 00:03:21.000 And so in a lot of ways, I would say I'm grateful 79 00:03:21.000 --> 00:03:25.040 that that happened because, you know, if Leila had just said it, 80 00:03:25.040 --> 00:03:26.800 I think I would have, you know, I'd take it seriously 81 00:03:26.800 --> 00:03:29.000 but like two people in 24 hours saying it 82 00:03:29.000 --> 00:03:31.520 made me really think long and hard about it 83 00:03:31.520 --> 00:03:34.600 because, you know, just very transparently, like the number one thing 84 00:03:34.600 --> 00:03:36.960 I've struggled with my entire life is ego. 85 00:03:36.960 --> 00:03:38.720 And it's a topic that, I don't know, 86 00:03:38.720 --> 00:03:40.840 I feel like it gets talked a lot more in the woo-woo world 87 00:03:40.840 --> 00:03:42.800 than it does in like the entrepreneur world. 88 00:03:42.800 --> 00:03:44.360 But pride kills profits. 89 00:03:44.360 --> 00:03:47.400 And a lot of it is because like we care more about being right 90 00:03:47.400 --> 00:03:49.480 than serving the other person. 91 00:03:49.520 --> 00:03:51.600 And there's this quote about humility 92 00:03:51.600 --> 00:03:53.520 that, shoot, I can't remember the guy's name, 93 00:03:53.520 --> 00:03:55.760 but he's the guy who wrote, I think, 94 00:03:55.760 --> 00:03:56.800 disruptive innovation. 95 00:03:56.800 --> 00:03:58.120 He was a Harvard Business School professor. 96 00:03:58.120 --> 00:03:59.480 I think his first name is Christian. 97 00:03:59.480 --> 00:04:01.000 Anyways, very, very smart guy. 98 00:04:01.000 --> 00:04:03.680 And he said humility is not thinking less of oneself 99 00:04:03.680 --> 00:04:05.800 but increasing your regard for others. 100 00:04:05.800 --> 00:04:07.760 And that was a really useful definition for me 101 00:04:07.760 --> 00:04:09.960 because it's, you know, it's not about pushing yourself down. 102 00:04:09.960 --> 00:04:11.360 It's about raising everyone else up. 103 00:04:11.360 --> 00:04:13.520 And I think that there have been some podcasts 104 00:04:13.520 --> 00:04:15.240 that everyone really well, like there's a school of greatness 105 00:04:15.240 --> 00:04:17.360 podcasts with Lewis Howes that I think is really, really good 106 00:04:17.360 --> 00:04:18.520 that's gonna come out soon. 107 00:04:18.520 --> 00:04:21.280 There's a podcast, the Ice Coffee Hour podcast 108 00:04:21.280 --> 00:04:23.920 with Grape Steffen, Jack Selby on their channel, 109 00:04:23.920 --> 00:04:25.920 which you can check out is I think a really good podcast, 110 00:04:25.920 --> 00:04:27.880 at least I've got a lot of positive feedback from it. 111 00:04:27.880 --> 00:04:29.240 And I was trying to look at like, 112 00:04:29.240 --> 00:04:30.440 what's the difference between those ones 113 00:04:30.440 --> 00:04:33.560 and the ones that I come off, you know, doucheier. 114 00:04:33.560 --> 00:04:36.440 And, you know, I'm partially exploring this outline 115 00:04:36.440 --> 00:04:37.920 with you guys because like, I don't know if there's times 116 00:04:37.920 --> 00:04:40.640 where you're, you know, not coming off the way you want to 117 00:04:40.640 --> 00:04:42.040 or you're like not in the right mood 118 00:04:42.040 --> 00:04:44.520 or you're just, you're not the best version of you. 119 00:04:44.520 --> 00:04:45.360 You know what I mean? 120 00:04:45.440 --> 00:04:48.360 I'm kind of making this because I think, you know, 121 00:04:48.360 --> 00:04:50.520 I feel like just from the comments and the posts 122 00:04:50.520 --> 00:04:52.080 and the tags and things like that, like, 123 00:04:52.080 --> 00:04:53.880 musination and I love you guys to death, 124 00:04:53.880 --> 00:04:56.040 I think there are some times where you put me on a pedestal 125 00:04:56.040 --> 00:04:57.920 like I am something that I am not. 126 00:04:57.920 --> 00:04:58.760 You know what I mean? 127 00:04:58.760 --> 00:05:02.680 Like I am very flawed and I work at it. 128 00:05:02.680 --> 00:05:03.800 You know what I mean? 129 00:05:03.800 --> 00:05:06.000 And I fail a lot. 130 00:05:06.000 --> 00:05:08.760 And Ego's been one that I've struggled a lot with. 131 00:05:08.760 --> 00:05:10.920 And it was the thing that really isolated me, 132 00:05:10.920 --> 00:05:13.880 you know what I was younger because I definitely, you know, 133 00:05:13.920 --> 00:05:16.880 and I think Ego is another way of saying insecurity. 134 00:05:16.880 --> 00:05:19.360 I've just, you know, wanting to prove 135 00:05:19.360 --> 00:05:21.760 that you're better than people because deep down, 136 00:05:21.760 --> 00:05:23.400 you don't feel like you're good enough. 137 00:05:23.400 --> 00:05:27.520 And so for me, that's been a struggle my entire life 138 00:05:27.520 --> 00:05:30.200 and it's been just a, I see it much more as a war 139 00:05:30.200 --> 00:05:31.840 than I do a battle. 140 00:05:31.840 --> 00:05:32.680 You know what I mean? 141 00:05:32.680 --> 00:05:35.000 So, you know, wars have many, many battles in them. 142 00:05:35.000 --> 00:05:37.040 And at this point, I'm definitely not undefeated. 143 00:05:37.040 --> 00:05:40.160 So it's much more about like, I'd like to have more W's 144 00:05:40.160 --> 00:05:43.240 than L's in the, in the wins and losses column around this. 145 00:05:43.240 --> 00:05:45.640 And I think I've just had a lot of L's lately. 146 00:05:45.640 --> 00:05:48.280 And so I'll just explain to you what I think, you know, 147 00:05:48.280 --> 00:05:50.560 my process of what I'm gonna try and think of around this, 148 00:05:50.560 --> 00:05:53.680 you know, in the future is that I'm going to try 149 00:05:53.680 --> 00:05:56.320 and level set before I get on interviews 150 00:05:56.320 --> 00:05:58.240 and type a little checklist in my phone of like, 151 00:05:58.240 --> 00:06:01.040 hey, humility is increasing your regard for others. 152 00:06:01.040 --> 00:06:02.600 It's caring more about the audience. 153 00:06:02.600 --> 00:06:05.320 It's caring more about the other person than being right. 154 00:06:05.320 --> 00:06:07.880 And it's ideally just lifting up everyone around you. 155 00:06:07.880 --> 00:06:10.240 And it's just, you know, I think there's just this part 156 00:06:10.240 --> 00:06:13.760 of me that always screams out and wants to, you know, 157 00:06:13.760 --> 00:06:14.600 approve something. 158 00:06:14.600 --> 00:06:16.920 And I'm sure that, you know, a lot of the material success 159 00:06:16.920 --> 00:06:17.920 has come from this place. 160 00:06:17.920 --> 00:06:19.400 And I don't think it's a positive place. 161 00:06:19.400 --> 00:06:20.680 I think it's a negative one. 162 00:06:20.680 --> 00:06:23.240 Or rather, it's a, you know, in a motion that, 163 00:06:23.240 --> 00:06:24.440 that I wouldn't say is a pool. 164 00:06:24.440 --> 00:06:26.400 It's a, when I see positive negative, 165 00:06:26.400 --> 00:06:29.360 I should redefine it as it is in a way from fuel 166 00:06:29.360 --> 00:06:31.040 rather than a towards fuel. 167 00:06:31.040 --> 00:06:34.040 Like most of my motivation has been trying not to feel 168 00:06:34.040 --> 00:06:36.240 like a failure in my own eyes. 169 00:06:36.240 --> 00:06:39.040 Then it is to, you know, pull towards something. 170 00:06:39.040 --> 00:06:40.800 I like to, when I operate in my best self, 171 00:06:40.800 --> 00:06:42.680 I think I have more pool motivation, 172 00:06:42.680 --> 00:06:44.440 but I still think that there's a, a significant part 173 00:06:44.440 --> 00:06:46.440 of me that is driven away from things 174 00:06:46.440 --> 00:06:48.040 and driven away from pain. 175 00:06:48.040 --> 00:06:50.840 And so I noticed the common theme between the ones 176 00:06:50.840 --> 00:06:52.720 that I did well on and the ones that I didn't do, 177 00:06:52.720 --> 00:06:54.800 you know, or I didn't show up the way I wanted to, 178 00:06:54.800 --> 00:06:56.800 was, I think my ego flared up. 179 00:06:56.800 --> 00:07:01.640 And I think that for me was, if I sense, you know, 180 00:07:01.640 --> 00:07:04.600 a more serious, you know, tone from the other person 181 00:07:04.600 --> 00:07:07.560 or I feel like I can't relax, then, um, 182 00:07:07.560 --> 00:07:09.120 then I, that I don't, you know what I mean? 183 00:07:09.120 --> 00:07:11.840 And I get hyper analytical and I get really cold. 184 00:07:11.840 --> 00:07:14.360 And so in some ways, I think my worst self 185 00:07:14.360 --> 00:07:16.760 is just kind of a light version of anger. 186 00:07:16.760 --> 00:07:19.320 Because I think pride creates anger a lot of times. 187 00:07:19.320 --> 00:07:20.480 You know, I mean, it creates fear 188 00:07:20.480 --> 00:07:22.320 and then that fear turns into anger, you know, 189 00:07:22.320 --> 00:07:23.440 in the words of Yoda. 190 00:07:23.440 --> 00:07:26.320 And so being cognizant of that is, you know, 191 00:07:26.320 --> 00:07:28.960 at least, at least now I'm sort of aware of it. 192 00:07:28.960 --> 00:07:31.280 And so I'm, I'm making an extra effort 193 00:07:31.280 --> 00:07:34.320 to not be that way and to take steps beforehand 194 00:07:34.320 --> 00:07:37.360 where if I like feel my ego flaring up 195 00:07:37.360 --> 00:07:41.520 and trying to posture and trying to prove right, 196 00:07:41.520 --> 00:07:44.480 which is kind of when I get into that, that mode, 197 00:07:44.480 --> 00:07:45.600 I just get hyper analytical. 198 00:07:45.600 --> 00:07:47.480 I get really, really, I don't know, 199 00:07:47.480 --> 00:07:49.360 defensive is the right word, but like, 200 00:07:49.360 --> 00:07:51.240 I really start defending all my ideas 201 00:07:51.240 --> 00:07:53.440 and attacking other people's ideas. 202 00:07:53.440 --> 00:07:56.120 And I just don't think it's helpful for anyone, you know what I mean? 203 00:07:56.120 --> 00:07:57.280 And it doesn't serve me. 204 00:07:59.800 --> 00:08:01.680 Any more sedation, quick break just to let you know 205 00:08:01.680 --> 00:08:03.480 that we've been starting to post on LinkedIn 206 00:08:03.480 --> 00:08:05.000 and want to connect with you. 207 00:08:05.000 --> 00:08:06.440 Alright, so send me a connection request 208 00:08:06.560 --> 00:08:08.120 and let me know that you listen to the show 209 00:08:08.120 --> 00:08:09.360 and I will accept it. 210 00:08:09.360 --> 00:08:11.120 There's anyone you think that we should be connected 211 00:08:11.120 --> 00:08:13.760 with, tag them in one of my Relayless posts 212 00:08:13.760 --> 00:08:15.840 and I will give you all the love in the world. 213 00:08:15.840 --> 00:08:17.440 Alright, so let's get back to the show. 214 00:08:20.000 --> 00:08:22.160 Being transparent, that is what I'm, you know, 215 00:08:22.160 --> 00:08:24.400 working on right now in an effort to make better stuff 216 00:08:24.400 --> 00:08:28.640 for you guys because I want to ideally suck less 217 00:08:28.640 --> 00:08:30.200 in the future than I do today. 218 00:08:30.200 --> 00:08:32.960 Definitely feel pretty shitty about it, 219 00:08:32.960 --> 00:08:36.160 but I will endeavor to be better. 220 00:08:36.160 --> 00:08:39.120 And so my steps and the kind of like the refrain 221 00:08:39.120 --> 00:08:41.200 that I'm going back to is the humility 222 00:08:41.200 --> 00:08:42.680 is about increasing my regard for others. 223 00:08:42.680 --> 00:08:43.920 It's about listening more. 224 00:08:43.920 --> 00:08:46.480 It's about seeking to understand not to prove right. 225 00:08:46.480 --> 00:08:49.480 It's about trying to put the needs of the audience first. 226 00:08:49.480 --> 00:08:51.680 And you know, one of the interesting things too 227 00:08:51.680 --> 00:08:53.720 is I feel like I do better with lives. 228 00:08:53.720 --> 00:08:57.040 So like if I'm like on stage or like at workshops 229 00:08:57.040 --> 00:08:59.800 or even doing like the Instagram live that I did the other day, 230 00:08:59.800 --> 00:09:02.560 like I feel like I'm better when I'm with you guys 231 00:09:02.560 --> 00:09:04.960 than when I do in a reported fashion like this. 232 00:09:04.960 --> 00:09:07.240 And I think even the podcasts that are more recorded, 233 00:09:07.240 --> 00:09:09.240 like I might try and incorporate more lives 234 00:09:09.240 --> 00:09:12.240 as almost as a crutch to try and give myself a bridge 235 00:09:12.240 --> 00:09:13.800 to being better about this. 236 00:09:13.800 --> 00:09:15.400 But I feel like if you guys are there with me, 237 00:09:15.400 --> 00:09:18.640 I feel much more like aware that you guys are there 238 00:09:18.640 --> 00:09:19.840 and I want to make it worth your time 239 00:09:19.840 --> 00:09:21.840 and worth your attention and worth the cost. 240 00:09:21.840 --> 00:09:23.080 But when you're not, you know, 241 00:09:23.080 --> 00:09:25.200 sometimes I think I retreat into like my more 242 00:09:25.200 --> 00:09:28.080 analytical side that tries to just defend stuff 243 00:09:28.080 --> 00:09:29.360 and I don't like it. 244 00:09:29.360 --> 00:09:31.880 So that is what I'm working on right now. 245 00:09:31.880 --> 00:09:33.560 And if you are working on something like this, 246 00:09:33.560 --> 00:09:35.920 then leave it in the comments below. 247 00:09:35.920 --> 00:09:38.320 And if this was in any way valuable to you, 248 00:09:38.320 --> 00:09:40.280 this was very uncomfortable for me to make, 249 00:09:40.280 --> 00:09:42.280 but this is in an effort to, you know, 250 00:09:42.280 --> 00:09:43.960 fulfill one of my life goals, 251 00:09:43.960 --> 00:09:46.120 which is to die with no secrets. 252 00:09:46.120 --> 00:09:47.160 Because I think, you know, 253 00:09:47.160 --> 00:09:49.160 I'll give you a quick tangent on this. 254 00:09:49.160 --> 00:09:50.640 Pride isolates us. 255 00:09:50.640 --> 00:09:52.200 It makes us feel alone. 256 00:09:52.200 --> 00:09:54.600 And a lot of that I think also comes from shame, 257 00:09:54.600 --> 00:09:57.480 which is that we feel ashamed of things 258 00:09:57.480 --> 00:09:59.560 that we have done or things that we have thought. 259 00:09:59.560 --> 00:10:02.680 And we think about what other people would say about us. 260 00:10:02.680 --> 00:10:04.360 And, you know, the reality is that most people aren't immune 261 00:10:04.360 --> 00:10:05.200 to shop to your funeral. 262 00:10:05.200 --> 00:10:06.520 So why would you care about what they're going to say 263 00:10:06.520 --> 00:10:07.760 while you're alive? 264 00:10:07.760 --> 00:10:08.560 But we still do. 265 00:10:08.560 --> 00:10:09.400 You know what I mean? 266 00:10:09.400 --> 00:10:13.120 Because social dynamics are a strong part 267 00:10:13.120 --> 00:10:15.280 of, you know, tribe behavior. 268 00:10:15.280 --> 00:10:17.520 And, you know, if you get shunned by the tribe, 269 00:10:17.520 --> 00:10:18.960 it feels like death. 270 00:10:18.960 --> 00:10:22.880 And so it makes sense that we would care about 271 00:10:22.880 --> 00:10:24.720 what other people think because that is how we are raised. 272 00:10:24.720 --> 00:10:26.560 Like that is how we learn behaviors. 273 00:10:26.560 --> 00:10:28.520 That's how we learn what's socially acceptable, et cetera. 274 00:10:28.520 --> 00:10:30.680 You know, it's a function as a human being in society. 275 00:10:30.680 --> 00:10:32.720 And so to say, like, we're not going to care 276 00:10:32.720 --> 00:10:34.360 about what other people think, I think it's a process 277 00:10:34.360 --> 00:10:36.040 that we try and unlearn over time. 278 00:10:36.040 --> 00:10:37.560 But I don't think we ever get rid of it 279 00:10:37.560 --> 00:10:39.840 because I think it's really just being able to add it 280 00:10:39.840 --> 00:10:42.600 an extra step or an extra second of pause saying, like, 281 00:10:42.600 --> 00:10:45.400 I do care about some things, but do I care about everything 282 00:10:45.400 --> 00:10:46.240 that society thinks? 283 00:10:46.240 --> 00:10:47.200 And so I think it's really being more 284 00:10:47.200 --> 00:10:49.880 selects about the things that we choose to agree with 285 00:10:49.880 --> 00:10:51.840 or disagree with society on overall 286 00:10:51.840 --> 00:10:54.760 when it comes to how we judge ourselves. 287 00:10:54.760 --> 00:10:56.000 But shame isolates us. 288 00:10:56.000 --> 00:10:59.560 And so my hope and my experience has been 289 00:10:59.560 --> 00:11:02.240 every time that I've kind of like shared a secret 290 00:11:02.240 --> 00:11:04.400 or shared something that I was ashamed of, 291 00:11:04.400 --> 00:11:08.520 I realized that my fear of the light of it getting exposed 292 00:11:08.520 --> 00:11:13.040 was far greater than the pain of exposing it to begin with. 293 00:11:13.040 --> 00:11:15.000 And so there's a thing, I think there's a saying 294 00:11:15.000 --> 00:11:18.160 it says shame cannot exist in the light. 295 00:11:18.160 --> 00:11:19.920 So shame only exists in darkness, 296 00:11:19.920 --> 00:11:22.240 which exists in isolation in our pride. 297 00:11:22.240 --> 00:11:24.360 Isolates us from other people and makes us feel like 298 00:11:24.360 --> 00:11:27.240 we can't share those things because we will be less than. 299 00:11:27.240 --> 00:11:30.960 And so my goal is to die with no secrets 300 00:11:30.960 --> 00:11:34.840 so that at least in my mind everyone sees me for who I am 301 00:11:34.840 --> 00:11:36.640 because I think the fear is if people 302 00:11:36.640 --> 00:11:39.720 saw the aspects of yourself that you are not proud of, 303 00:11:39.720 --> 00:11:40.760 that they would think less of you 304 00:11:40.760 --> 00:11:43.280 or they would reject you or not approve of you 305 00:11:43.280 --> 00:11:46.040 or you would lose whatever status that you have. 306 00:11:46.040 --> 00:11:48.160 And so I'm actively trying to combat that. 307 00:11:48.160 --> 00:11:51.640 So hopefully when I die, I will have no secrets left 308 00:11:51.640 --> 00:11:54.160 and everyone who is around me knows those things 309 00:11:54.160 --> 00:11:56.480 and accepts me for who I am, 310 00:11:56.480 --> 00:11:58.440 including the many flaws that exist within me. 311 00:11:58.440 --> 00:12:01.000 So anyways, Mosination, I love you guys. 312 00:12:01.000 --> 00:12:03.640 This audience that you guys coming together 313 00:12:03.640 --> 00:12:07.360 has been something that I was beyond what I expected. 314 00:12:07.360 --> 00:12:09.000 It's certainly more than I deserve 315 00:12:09.000 --> 00:12:10.400 and I'm just, I'm truly grateful 316 00:12:10.400 --> 00:12:13.680 and you guys helped me be a better version of me. 317 00:12:13.680 --> 00:12:15.680 And so I just wanna say thank you. 318 00:12:15.680 --> 00:12:17.040 Have an amazing day guys. 319 00:12:17.040 --> 00:12:18.600 If you are new, there's a whole bunch of other stuff 320 00:12:18.600 --> 00:12:20.840 that's much more business focused on this channel 321 00:12:20.840 --> 00:12:23.280 but I was feeling rather in the dumps. 322 00:12:23.320 --> 00:12:24.920 And like I said, you should tell people about it. 323 00:12:24.920 --> 00:12:26.280 So here I am. 324 00:12:26.280 --> 00:12:27.520 So lots of love. 325 00:12:27.520 --> 00:12:28.360 Bye.