WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:05.360 The soul is like a battleground and every wound is like giving up territory to the enemy. 2 00:00:05.360 --> 00:00:10.560 He'll use that in your life to take you out. He'll use that in your life to hurt other people. 3 00:00:10.560 --> 00:00:15.760 God's not okay with it. He wants you to deal with it. The good news is he's got all the resources 4 00:00:15.760 --> 00:00:20.640 of heaven at your disposal to heal it. This whole walk is a divine partnership. 5 00:00:20.640 --> 00:00:25.200 You know, the Lord is going to give you everything you need but you have to cooperate. You have to 6 00:00:26.160 --> 00:00:31.920 welcome to the city light church podcast. Thanks for joining us today as we look into God's word 7 00:00:31.920 --> 00:00:37.280 and discover the hope and truth that he has for us. If you want to connect with city light 8 00:00:37.280 --> 00:00:44.000 church feel free to visit us at citylightnyc.com that's citylightnyc.com. 9 00:00:44.720 --> 00:00:50.480 Pastor Boyan Jansik and his team believe that the power of the Holy Spirit is already working 10 00:00:50.480 --> 00:00:56.800 in our hearts and minds. As you listen to today's teaching remember that you are deeply loved by God 11 00:00:57.360 --> 00:01:02.400 that you are surrounded by his grace and that he has a real hope and a future for you. 12 00:01:05.520 --> 00:01:08.240 So once you put your hands together and welcome Brian Anderson. 13 00:01:09.120 --> 00:01:22.960 Thank you Pastor Bo. That was an intro right there. Good morning church. 14 00:01:24.240 --> 00:01:28.320 Woo, second service. You guys have had more coffee than the first hopefully. 15 00:01:29.840 --> 00:01:35.040 And I was told before starting that the clock here is just a suggestion now, right? 16 00:01:35.040 --> 00:01:43.040 For a second. So that's good. That's good. I don't know. I'm probably not going to use it all but 17 00:01:45.520 --> 00:01:51.280 so my message today is about the restoration power of God. I'm speaking from personal 18 00:01:51.280 --> 00:01:59.120 experience because we walked into this church in 2019. My now wife and I broke and not following 19 00:01:59.120 --> 00:02:08.000 the Lord full of forgiveness issues, addiction issues, broken hearted, trust issues, just issues 20 00:02:08.000 --> 00:02:12.720 for days. And we came just because we wanted a little spirituality in our lives. You know people 21 00:02:12.720 --> 00:02:17.200 talk about I'm spiritual. I'm not a person of faith. Yeah that was us. We're going to be a little 22 00:02:17.200 --> 00:02:23.920 spiritual now. So we came to dabble and dip a toe and we fell all the way in. 23 00:02:24.000 --> 00:02:32.800 And so you know years later I spent six years. It's been a process but the Lord, we gave our 24 00:02:32.800 --> 00:02:38.480 lives to the Lord in this church. We got baptized in this church. We got healed in this church. We got 25 00:02:40.880 --> 00:02:44.000 just ministered to by a lot of you in this church. You've seen our story, you've seen our process. 26 00:02:44.000 --> 00:02:49.200 We've had two more kids since coming to this church. My wife sitting over here. Wave. 27 00:02:49.200 --> 00:02:56.960 This is actually Benjamin's first service. He's our youngest, maybe newest city lighter. He's in a 28 00:02:56.960 --> 00:03:04.160 little car seat over there, weighing in at about nine pounds right now. Heavy weight. But he's two 29 00:03:04.160 --> 00:03:09.600 months old so he started out as a lightweight. But Benjamin, Danny Anderson, we named him, his 30 00:03:09.600 --> 00:03:15.760 middle name is after my father. It's about time we honored my father with the beginning his name 31 00:03:15.760 --> 00:03:25.520 in there somewhere. So my father is a pastor and I grew up in a pastor family. I'm going to share 32 00:03:25.520 --> 00:03:31.280 a little bit about what led me, what I believe were some lessons that caused me to backslide for 33 00:03:31.280 --> 00:03:36.800 13 years of my life and walk away from the Lord despite my upbringing and some of the things that 34 00:03:36.800 --> 00:03:41.280 brought me back and some of the lessons I've learned for restoration. I'm speaking specifically 35 00:03:41.360 --> 00:03:48.960 today to the restoration of the soul. Without a heart restoration, you can't really see restoration 36 00:03:48.960 --> 00:03:53.280 in other areas of your life and scripture bears that out. So I want to just highlight a few 37 00:03:53.280 --> 00:03:59.920 scriptures and then we'll do testimony time and I'll give you some nitty gritty details and then 38 00:04:00.560 --> 00:04:07.840 some lessons that I've learned. First scripture I want to cue up with this amazing technology we 39 00:04:07.920 --> 00:04:17.440 have here is Romans 12-2. See, I've got it here. I've got like the high death version. 40 00:04:20.160 --> 00:04:24.080 The Bible says that we are being transformed by the renewing of our mind. So now the Bible 41 00:04:24.080 --> 00:04:29.120 distinguishes between our spirit and our soul. Our spirit is that part of us that comes alive when 42 00:04:29.120 --> 00:04:33.760 we put our faith in Christ and so it's a part of us that's eternal. It's a part of us that 43 00:04:33.920 --> 00:04:38.240 relate to the spiritual realm and the Bible says we're a new creation when we put our faith in 44 00:04:38.240 --> 00:04:44.320 Jesus where all of our sins are wiped away and so our spirit is what we say is born again. 45 00:04:45.360 --> 00:04:48.720 When you say you're born again, you're talking about your spirit, not your body. That'll get 46 00:04:48.720 --> 00:04:53.360 changed out later too when you get a new body when you go to heaven. But your spirit is eternal 47 00:04:53.360 --> 00:05:00.720 and your spirit is born again. Your soul is your mind willing emotions and that's the part of 48 00:05:00.960 --> 00:05:07.760 you that the Lord is renewing into the image of his son. So when we say when the psalmist, 49 00:05:07.760 --> 00:05:12.400 if you've ever read the psalms, he talks to a soul sometimes. Why you downcast, oh my soul, put 50 00:05:12.400 --> 00:05:18.000 your faith in God because your soul can get discouraged. It's your mind, your will, your emotions. 51 00:05:18.000 --> 00:05:23.440 It can get bruised and battered and it can have experience pain and it can be damaged. 52 00:05:24.400 --> 00:05:26.800 And good news is it can also be restored by the Lord. 53 00:05:30.160 --> 00:05:33.760 So Romans 12-2, we just read, be transformed by the renewing of your mind, 54 00:05:33.760 --> 00:05:39.760 your mind is part of the soul. Next verse Psalm 23. We've all read this, we've skimmed 55 00:05:39.760 --> 00:05:45.520 right past next verse, skid right past the part where he says he restores my soul. There's 56 00:05:45.520 --> 00:05:51.600 everyone's favorite song I think, right? He leads me beside still waters. He lays, makes me line 57 00:05:51.680 --> 00:05:56.960 at down in green pastures. It's not a one-time event. This is like the way our walk with the Lord 58 00:05:56.960 --> 00:06:02.960 goes. He restores my soul. So soul restoration is part of your walk with the Lord. So all 59 00:06:02.960 --> 00:06:08.240 every one of us can experience hurt. We can pick up a fence. We can experience pain in our soul 60 00:06:08.240 --> 00:06:13.440 and we have to deal with it. And the Lord is the one who does it. He restores my soul. So we've 61 00:06:13.440 --> 00:06:21.840 been renewed by the renewing of our mind. Our souls can be restored. Next verse, let's look at Isaiah 62 00:06:21.840 --> 00:06:30.560 61-1. This is one of my favorites. Jesus preached this in his early ministry and he almost died 63 00:06:30.560 --> 00:06:35.680 for preaching it. They tried to kill him after he said, this is me. Basically the Spirit of the 64 00:06:35.680 --> 00:06:41.200 Lord is upon me because the Lord is anointed me to preach good news to the poor. Okay, that's 65 00:06:41.200 --> 00:06:46.240 the preaching of the gospel and there's the things that come with it. We see that the broken 66 00:06:46.240 --> 00:06:51.200 hearted are healed. He sent me to heal the broken hearted to proclaim liberty to the captives 67 00:06:51.200 --> 00:06:55.600 and the opening of the prison doors to those who are bound. Now he's not just speaking about 68 00:06:55.600 --> 00:07:02.480 actual prison. He's speaking about setting people free from bondage, addiction, trauma from 69 00:07:02.480 --> 00:07:10.080 relationships, broken trust, you know, infidelity in relationships. This is the stuff that was binding 70 00:07:10.080 --> 00:07:17.440 me up when the Lord set me free. And this stuff can get on Christians. You can be walking with 71 00:07:17.440 --> 00:07:21.760 the Lord. I think one of the hardest things sometimes is to be open that you're going through a 72 00:07:21.760 --> 00:07:25.600 season where your soul needs to be restored when you're especially when you're a mature Christian. 73 00:07:25.600 --> 00:07:29.120 It's hard to be vulnerable sometimes. You're supposed to have it all together. You've been walking 74 00:07:29.120 --> 00:07:33.280 with the Lord a while. It couldn't be you. You couldn't have hidden sin issues. You couldn't 75 00:07:33.280 --> 00:07:39.600 be the one. People will lose respect for you if you mention it to them. That's a lie. 76 00:07:40.560 --> 00:07:48.000 By the way, we all need restoration from time to time. We all need healing. Part of our walk that 77 00:07:48.000 --> 00:07:54.160 Psalm 23 walk with the Lord is a continual restoring a renewal. We always have to go to Him with our 78 00:07:54.160 --> 00:08:00.160 pain. If we don't go to Him with our pain, other problems happen. And that was what led me away, 79 00:08:00.160 --> 00:08:07.040 actually away from the Lord, was not dealing properly with crises in my life and having it completely 80 00:08:07.040 --> 00:08:14.160 shipwrecked my faith. Before we go to a little story about that, let's look a little bit more 81 00:08:14.160 --> 00:08:21.840 at 3 John 1-2. They're John 1-2. This is a great prayer. I pray that you may prosper in all things 82 00:08:22.480 --> 00:08:27.440 just as your soul prospers. So what it's saying is prosper in all things and be in health. I've 83 00:08:27.440 --> 00:08:32.720 forgot to be in health part. I just can't forget that one. Just as your soul prospers. So what the 84 00:08:32.720 --> 00:08:38.800 writer is saying is the health of your soul is connected to prosperity in every area of your life. 85 00:08:38.800 --> 00:08:44.160 If your soul is prospering, you'll see it in every area of your life. You'll see it in your 86 00:08:44.160 --> 00:08:48.880 relationships. You'll see it in your business. You'll see it in everything you do that the 87 00:08:48.880 --> 00:08:54.400 prosperity and health of your soul is the baseline for that. Another scripture that says basically 88 00:08:54.400 --> 00:09:01.200 the same thing is Proverbs 423. It says keep your heart with all diligence for out of it spring 89 00:09:01.200 --> 00:09:06.080 the issues of life. Another translation says guard your heart for everything you do flows out 90 00:09:06.080 --> 00:09:13.040 of it. So the health of your heart impacts everything you do. Your relationships, your work, 91 00:09:13.040 --> 00:09:19.200 everything. So it's kind of an important thing to get healed up and let the Lord do that. 92 00:09:19.680 --> 00:09:30.960 Okay. I'll share with you a little bit about my story and hopefully it'll help some of you 93 00:09:30.960 --> 00:09:34.800 avoid these pitfalls but also see some similarities and maybe some things that have happened in your 94 00:09:34.800 --> 00:09:42.000 life. As a college kid, I actually was completely on fire for the Lord. I'd grown up in a pastor's 95 00:09:42.000 --> 00:09:48.400 home, missionary family, spent some time in Peru as a kid and I'd been in church my entire life. 96 00:09:49.440 --> 00:09:54.640 Had some rocky years during high school where I wasn't sure about my faith and had friends who 97 00:09:54.640 --> 00:09:59.680 weren't Christians but in college I knew it was a crossroads for me and I decided you know this 98 00:09:59.680 --> 00:10:03.680 is a time I'm either going to become a party kid or I'm going to be a Christian. I decided 99 00:10:03.680 --> 00:10:09.280 to be a Christian. I got involved deeply with like a really healthy church in my college town 100 00:10:10.080 --> 00:10:19.280 in Oregon State University which is a long way from here and I was deeply involved in growing. 101 00:10:19.280 --> 00:10:25.440 I got filled with the Holy Spirit and it was a really powerful time in my life. At the end of 102 00:10:25.440 --> 00:10:32.480 college I felt the Lord calling me to go to law school and so I was heading in that direction 103 00:10:33.200 --> 00:10:38.480 when the church that I was a part of began to crumble and there were some scandals and issues 104 00:10:38.480 --> 00:10:42.720 and you know we've all read stories of churches that have failed, ministers that have failed 105 00:10:44.400 --> 00:10:50.400 and some of us it wouldn't have impacted them the way it impacted me. It impacted me deeply 106 00:10:51.280 --> 00:10:56.080 made me lose some of my faith in the church in part because I had seen my parents 107 00:10:57.280 --> 00:11:03.200 be hurt by churches before. I'd seen them go to a church, it didn't work out, they had differences 108 00:11:03.280 --> 00:11:07.600 in ministry approaches or whatever and people are you know despite being in a church, 109 00:11:07.600 --> 00:11:13.440 they're still human, they're still full of flaws, we're being redeemed and renewed but hurt people, 110 00:11:13.440 --> 00:11:19.920 hurt people and so the same damage that's in people gets projected onto someone else and 111 00:11:19.920 --> 00:11:23.360 I had seen my parents just kind of go through it, go through the ringer. So I think I was already 112 00:11:23.360 --> 00:11:30.480 carrying somewhat of a grudge against the church kind of expecting the church to fail me and so 113 00:11:30.480 --> 00:11:35.040 I said you know what, attack with this, I don't want to have anything to do with the church, 114 00:11:35.040 --> 00:11:42.240 I'm going to have my faith but I'm going to have it solo, lone ranger, you know, I don't need people, 115 00:11:42.800 --> 00:11:47.040 I'll do this on my own, people are risky, they're going to hurt you, they're going to let you down, 116 00:11:47.040 --> 00:11:53.600 so I'm just going to do this on my own and that was a mistake. 117 00:11:54.240 --> 00:12:03.200 I learned later you know that the Lord, he has a plan, well his plan A on earth is the church, 118 00:12:03.200 --> 00:12:09.440 there's no plan B, there's no plan C, if you don't believe that you've got to rip out the book 119 00:12:09.440 --> 00:12:16.160 of Ephesians, it's all about the church, the glorious church, the church he's coming back for, 120 00:12:16.160 --> 00:12:22.640 I restored bride, so if we have issues with church, we have issues with God ultimately, 121 00:12:23.760 --> 00:12:29.600 there are problems in churches, there are churches that have failed but this is a team sport, 122 00:12:29.600 --> 00:12:34.640 we can't do faith alone, it doesn't work, lone ranger flaky Christians is a thing of 123 00:12:35.600 --> 00:12:41.040 something else, it's not you know real faith, you have to have you know you're just going to 124 00:12:41.040 --> 00:12:47.840 conferences isn't enough, tuning in online to your favorite YouTube preacher isn't being part of 125 00:12:47.840 --> 00:12:52.960 a church, being part of church means you meet with people and you share your faith, you share 126 00:12:52.960 --> 00:12:57.200 your pains, you share your hurts and some of the soul restoration that has to happen in our lives 127 00:12:57.200 --> 00:13:02.800 comes from the church and God uses imperfect people in our life to bring healing because it keeps 128 00:13:02.800 --> 00:13:07.440 us humble, if we were just to go to God we just be these arrogant people, I got it me and God, 129 00:13:07.440 --> 00:13:14.240 we're going to go pray real quick and fix it, instead he uses imperfect people in our lives and 130 00:13:15.600 --> 00:13:21.600 it's actually a beautiful thing because we're all in need of a savior, we're all imperfect, 131 00:13:21.600 --> 00:13:27.040 we're all being renewed, we're not there yet and the Lord will use mature Christians but 132 00:13:27.040 --> 00:13:31.680 fallible people who don't always say the right thing the right way who didn't return your phone 133 00:13:31.760 --> 00:13:39.600 call on time and now I'm offended, you know the petty stuff you deal with in church sometimes is 134 00:13:39.600 --> 00:13:46.000 just human stuff but it's God's planning on the earth and and it's and we got to stay plugged in. 135 00:13:46.000 --> 00:13:49.920 The enemy wants us to have a critical spirit, I think it's one of the biggest 136 00:13:50.560 --> 00:13:54.880 the one of the biggest things that that takes out Christians and believers and even keeps people 137 00:13:54.880 --> 00:13:59.680 from walking in the door in the first place is just having a critical spirit about churches and 138 00:13:59.680 --> 00:14:06.320 church leaders, it's grieving to the Holy Spirit every time a leader falls because it 139 00:14:06.320 --> 00:14:13.360 erects another reason for people to avoid the church which is the very source of life for people 140 00:14:13.360 --> 00:14:24.320 to stay plugged in to stay protected and to grow. Okay, second thing that happened and these were 141 00:14:24.400 --> 00:14:30.560 kind of reflections I did with the Lord where I said, Lord, how did I get so far off of course? 142 00:14:30.560 --> 00:14:34.400 You know, I was I was people look at my family and they say you have an amazing family, 143 00:14:34.400 --> 00:14:40.640 some people use the word perfect, not perfect but they're really loving people and they serve the 144 00:14:40.640 --> 00:14:45.760 Lord with all their hearts and you know no family is perfect but my family was just about as 145 00:14:45.760 --> 00:14:50.640 close as perfect as you can get and yet you've got this kid who just goes off off the deep end. 146 00:14:51.120 --> 00:14:57.040 So what happened you know so the second thing crisis that hit my life was a divorce. I'd 147 00:14:57.040 --> 00:15:02.800 been married at a young age in church and it was kind of my my marriage was kind of really connected 148 00:15:02.800 --> 00:15:08.080 to my faith and then you know we kind of grew up together in the church and the marriage started 149 00:15:08.080 --> 00:15:14.720 falling apart after you know well we had issues that we never really opened up about but it really 150 00:15:14.720 --> 00:15:20.960 started falling apart after we were no longer in fellowship. So we were we were kind of like 151 00:15:21.440 --> 00:15:26.720 sitting ducks. We had issues that we needed to deal with, we weren't dealing with them, 152 00:15:26.720 --> 00:15:29.600 we weren't opening up to anybody and we were out of the church because we rejected 153 00:15:30.480 --> 00:15:37.760 fellowship as as something we didn't need anymore and so when this crisis hit we were completely 154 00:15:37.760 --> 00:15:43.920 vulnerable and didn't have a community and it shook my faith in God. It made me question 155 00:15:44.480 --> 00:15:51.680 the nature of God and sometimes pain has a way of lying to you about who God is, his nature. 156 00:15:52.880 --> 00:15:56.800 It's one of the most dangerous things about going through a traumatic season or a painful season 157 00:15:56.800 --> 00:16:01.760 is a devil will lie to you about who God is who'll make you question. Did God really say that? 158 00:16:01.760 --> 00:16:08.000 Is he really good? Does he really have your best interest in mind? Or is he fickle? Is he flaky? 159 00:16:08.640 --> 00:16:14.400 Is he unreliable? Is he distant? Is he far off? And you start to kind of adopt this resentment 160 00:16:15.120 --> 00:16:19.360 towards the Lord and you can you can harbor in your heart something that actually starts to push 161 00:16:20.000 --> 00:16:24.640 the loving father away from you. Now we know in scripture in Pastor Boeluted to it before we 162 00:16:24.640 --> 00:16:33.360 started here that the father's heart is actually close to us. In fact it's as close as our breath 163 00:16:33.360 --> 00:16:38.640 his healing power to save and heal us. He's never far off. We just believe he's far off. 164 00:16:39.920 --> 00:16:45.680 The father runs towards the prodigal son. The prodigal son by the way if you know the story 165 00:16:45.680 --> 00:16:50.320 he's coming back from having squandered his inheritance. He wasted all his father's money 166 00:16:51.280 --> 00:16:57.120 on women, booze, drugs, whatever and he's walking up the trail just to be like a servant in the 167 00:16:57.120 --> 00:17:03.360 household and the father runs to him, puts a ring on his finger, puts a robe on him, puts sandals 168 00:17:03.360 --> 00:17:09.200 on his feet and throws a party. That's the heart of the father towards you and towards your woundedness 169 00:17:09.200 --> 00:17:14.880 and to your pain. The father runs towards it. He's not afraid of it. He's not ashamed of it. He's 170 00:17:14.880 --> 00:17:20.160 not intimidated by it. There's nothing you can do that makes where your pain would be 171 00:17:20.880 --> 00:17:27.520 too shocking to him. He's seen it all. He died. He sent his son to die to wipe it all away 172 00:17:27.520 --> 00:17:33.680 and he is interested in it and wants to take it from you and heal you. He does understand you. 173 00:17:33.680 --> 00:17:37.920 It's a lie when the enemy tells you no one understands me. The father understands. 174 00:17:38.880 --> 00:17:46.320 The father understands. He put all that pain on his son and let his son die so that he could touch 175 00:17:46.320 --> 00:17:58.640 that pain in you and heal it. So let's self-pity set in. Nobody understands me. Nobody's been through 176 00:17:58.640 --> 00:18:08.640 what I've been through. I'm uniquely wounded and identify with my pain. You know we're kind of 177 00:18:08.640 --> 00:18:12.800 in a culture today where people are obsessed with therapy but would never get better. 178 00:18:14.560 --> 00:18:19.760 And so like everyone wants to talk about their pain but nobody's getting better. I've got 179 00:18:19.760 --> 00:18:23.360 friends who've been going to therapy forever. It's like this great scam for the therapist. 180 00:18:24.000 --> 00:18:30.800 Like they get pharmaceutical drugs. They get high so they don't feel anxiety and stuff like that 181 00:18:31.440 --> 00:18:35.840 but they just keep paying the therapist and never getting over their issue. 182 00:18:35.840 --> 00:18:39.520 Got a friend who's got a forgiveness issue with his mother. I said, when are you going to 183 00:18:39.520 --> 00:18:43.760 forgive her? I don't know. He's been going to therapy for like five years over the forgiveness 184 00:18:43.760 --> 00:18:51.040 issue. He doesn't know the Lord. Maybe he's stuck he can't forgive. I think without God 185 00:18:51.680 --> 00:18:59.040 you can get stuck like that. I was stuck like that. In fact when Heidi and I came to the church 186 00:19:00.720 --> 00:19:05.520 we were trying to piece back together a relationship. We had both been unfaithful in our 187 00:19:05.520 --> 00:19:12.640 relationship to each other. That was the one wound I didn't think I could get over. I was like 188 00:19:13.440 --> 00:19:17.600 anything else that's happened to me in my life. I could get healed up from but somebody cheating 189 00:19:17.600 --> 00:19:26.480 on me. It's a direct front to my ego. I'm not supposed to get over as a man. I'm supposed to 190 00:19:27.280 --> 00:19:33.840 kick that person to the curb. That's what we do. We kick the person to the curb and we act like 191 00:19:33.840 --> 00:19:38.720 we're fine but we're not ever fine. We're wounded and we're damaged for the next relationship. 192 00:19:40.160 --> 00:19:43.440 And so I didn't know why we were trying to work it out but we were trying to work it out. It was 193 00:19:43.440 --> 00:19:50.960 this the Lord and his redemptive plan in our lives. We were trying to work it out but I had zero 194 00:19:50.960 --> 00:19:56.720 faith. It would work out. I thought it's doomed. There's too many trust issues. There's too much 195 00:19:56.720 --> 00:20:02.160 too many things I'm never getting over this. And by the way I've done the same thing but it's 196 00:20:02.160 --> 00:20:14.560 different when it happens to you. It's different when it happens to you. I mean honestly it shook 197 00:20:14.560 --> 00:20:25.920 me. It shook me. Why is that so funny? That's so true though. It shook me to the core and I didn't 198 00:20:25.920 --> 00:20:31.040 think I would ever I just thought I would cope with it. I never thought I could get through it. 199 00:20:32.080 --> 00:20:36.880 I never thought I would forgive. I just thought I would the pain would go lessen over time and I 200 00:20:36.880 --> 00:20:42.320 would just deal with it. And I think sometimes we don't understand that the Lord can heal us so we 201 00:20:42.320 --> 00:20:47.840 just sort of like get used to walking with the crutch. And we just say you know what it's fine. I'll 202 00:20:47.840 --> 00:20:56.400 be fine. You're not fine in fact that the soul is like a battleground and every wound is like 203 00:20:56.400 --> 00:21:01.600 giving up territory to the enemy. He'll use that in your life to take you out. He'll use that in 204 00:21:01.600 --> 00:21:07.760 your life to hurt other people. It doesn't just ever affect you. It affects your calling, your 205 00:21:07.760 --> 00:21:13.360 destiny, your children and it gets passed on. Woundedness is like one of those things that's like 206 00:21:13.440 --> 00:21:19.600 a virus. It just it gets passed on generationally. A lot of people are carrying some of the woundedness 207 00:21:19.600 --> 00:21:27.440 that their parents had. Maybe think about it. Some of your offensive, some things that offend 208 00:21:27.440 --> 00:21:33.120 you are because your parents were offended by them. That's like adopted. That's like passed on 209 00:21:33.120 --> 00:21:40.640 woundedness that you have to deal with. It's not okay. God's not okay with it. He wants you to 210 00:21:40.640 --> 00:21:47.280 deal with it. The good news is he's got all the resources of heaven at your disposal to heal it 211 00:21:48.160 --> 00:21:54.880 but you have to cooperate with it. This whole walk is a divine partnership. The Lord is 212 00:21:54.880 --> 00:21:58.960 going to give you everything you need but you have to cooperate. You have to cooperate. 213 00:21:58.960 --> 00:22:04.160 He's not just going to blow it down and blow it out of your system. He's going to require that 214 00:22:04.320 --> 00:22:11.600 you in faith walk some things out. Forgiveness is one of those tough things where you may have to 215 00:22:11.600 --> 00:22:15.920 talk to somebody. You may have to forgive somebody. You may have to open your mouth and say something. 216 00:22:15.920 --> 00:22:21.600 Hidden sins, one of those things where you may have to tell somebody. The Bible says to pray for 217 00:22:21.600 --> 00:22:28.640 each other. Confess and pray for each other. Bringing the light into an area can break the 218 00:22:28.640 --> 00:22:34.480 bondage that's holding you back. The Lord may have you do some things. There's tons of 219 00:22:34.480 --> 00:22:39.280 examples of that in scripture. Go wash here and your leprosy will be healed or go do this, 220 00:22:39.920 --> 00:22:44.560 rub mud on your eyes or whatever. There are steps that the Lord may have you do that is your 221 00:22:44.560 --> 00:22:48.480 gesture of faith that the Lord I believe and I'm going to step forward and I'm going to do something. 222 00:22:49.760 --> 00:22:54.080 So there are some things that we have to do to see healing come into our lives. 223 00:22:54.080 --> 00:23:01.520 I believe just one of the biggest things that holds people back from experiencing 224 00:23:02.240 --> 00:23:08.880 healing is not understanding the heart of the Father and not understanding that he comes for 225 00:23:08.880 --> 00:23:15.280 you again and again and again. He's the most persistent person you will ever meet. He doesn't 226 00:23:15.280 --> 00:23:20.000 stop coming. He doesn't stop chasing you until you're dying day. He will be chasing you. 227 00:23:20.800 --> 00:23:28.160 And you can push him away or you can begin to cooperate with him and see restoration in your life. 228 00:23:31.520 --> 00:23:36.720 Okay, a couple of lessons I've learned along the way. Well, I've mentioned a few but we'll 229 00:23:36.720 --> 00:23:45.280 mention a few more. We have to decide to believe in God's goodness and we have to choose to resist 230 00:23:45.920 --> 00:23:57.520 the lies about the Father. Let me tell you a quick story about restoration in our family. 231 00:23:59.680 --> 00:24:07.440 Before Heidi and I came to the Lord, Jude actually came to the Lord two years prior. We were 232 00:24:07.440 --> 00:24:11.920 actually visiting my parents and he'd gone to a church service where my father was preaching and 233 00:24:11.920 --> 00:24:16.160 given his life to the Lord. And so the Lord was already working redemptively in our family, 234 00:24:16.960 --> 00:24:23.440 chasing us, pursuing us. We were unaware of it. It was a sneak attack. He picked off my kid first 235 00:24:23.440 --> 00:24:36.640 and then came from me. It worked. But in the midst of that, Jude and I have a fantastic 236 00:24:36.640 --> 00:24:41.040 relationship and he prayed for me actually before the service. He had his hands on me praying for 237 00:24:41.040 --> 00:24:51.120 me, just speaking Holy Spirit, fill my dad, fill him up, you're with him, you call them, 238 00:24:51.120 --> 00:24:57.520 you're on his life. And so we've had this redemptive power of the Lord running through our life. 239 00:24:58.480 --> 00:25:06.560 But Jude is from a prior relationship. I have a custody agreement with Jude and I only see him 240 00:25:06.560 --> 00:25:14.080 40% of the time. And so his mother gets 60% of his entire childhood while he's spent with her 241 00:25:14.080 --> 00:25:20.560 and not with me. And so as a father, that's painful, especially when it came out of my drug-induced 242 00:25:20.560 --> 00:25:26.080 haze of 13 years and after walking into the city light, one of the things that keeps you stuck 243 00:25:26.080 --> 00:25:31.280 sometimes is you know how painful it will be when you sober up. That one of those pains and those 244 00:25:31.280 --> 00:25:39.680 regrets that was just deep to the core was I'm going to miss 60% of my first son's childhood. 245 00:25:40.880 --> 00:25:45.040 Lord, what do I do with that? How do I cope with that? Because it doesn't matter how much 246 00:25:45.040 --> 00:25:50.720 restoration I get in the church, I don't think those facts are changing. Those are not good facts. 247 00:25:52.160 --> 00:25:55.680 They're not good circumstances. Lord, can you change those circumstances? Can you make it like, 248 00:25:56.640 --> 00:26:00.640 I don't know, redo the agreement or something? Make it 50, 50 at least. 249 00:26:02.640 --> 00:26:07.680 And the Lord spoke to my heart and he said, Brian, I'm going to make it as if you never missed a day 250 00:26:07.680 --> 00:26:13.920 of your son's life. And he said, my grace is sufficient. I'll make it as if you never missed a day. 251 00:26:13.920 --> 00:26:20.160 And I said, Lord, how is that possible? 40%. So Brian, already look at your relationship with Jude. 252 00:26:20.160 --> 00:26:23.680 You have an incredible relationship with Jude. You have a better relationship with him than a lot 253 00:26:23.680 --> 00:26:28.480 of relationships you see with a father and a son who don't see each other every day or on the same 254 00:26:28.480 --> 00:26:33.600 house every day. And I looked and I saw it and I said, yeah, you're right, Lord. Oh my goodness. 255 00:26:34.480 --> 00:26:40.960 He's already doing it. He's already moving, moving redemptively in my life by his power to bring 256 00:26:40.960 --> 00:26:46.560 first my son to the Lord and to restore relationship. We have a close relationship today like you 257 00:26:46.560 --> 00:26:53.600 wouldn't believe. Like it's one of the highlights of my life. And the Lord has done that despite 258 00:26:55.120 --> 00:26:59.280 me not starting to walk with the Lord until he was seven years old being an absent father for the 259 00:26:59.280 --> 00:27:05.520 first seven years of his life. There's no bitterness there. There's no resentment there. We went on 260 00:27:05.520 --> 00:27:12.400 a father's son trip to Costa Rica when he was 10. It's sort of a tradition of my family. When your 261 00:27:12.480 --> 00:27:17.120 kid turns 10, you go out of the country and do some sort of trip. I think you just did one with 262 00:27:17.680 --> 00:27:21.760 your son. Yeah, yeah, my brothers. It's a god thing, I guess. It's a god thing. 263 00:27:24.080 --> 00:27:30.080 So we were traveling. We were in Costa Rica and I just felt that the Lord wanted me to 264 00:27:30.880 --> 00:27:38.480 apologize to Jude for being an absent father. And so we're at a proving restaurant. I have a 265 00:27:38.480 --> 00:27:43.200 thing for Peruvian food for having grown up in Peru. And I'm going to go find some water as I keep talking. 266 00:27:45.440 --> 00:27:51.760 Here's one. This is like, oh, thank you. Wow. All right. Have not because you asked not. 267 00:27:55.200 --> 00:28:02.640 So we're in the middle of this Peruvian restaurant in Costa Rica and you know sometimes in the 268 00:28:02.640 --> 00:28:08.880 Lord asked you to do something. It's uncomfortable. Actually, a lot of the times. Like, hey, get up and 269 00:28:08.880 --> 00:28:17.120 preach. It's not always the most comfortable. But you know, you got to do it because on the other 270 00:28:17.120 --> 00:28:23.040 side, there's life. And so then you start to like, even though you have to do it scared, you have to 271 00:28:23.040 --> 00:28:27.520 do it with your heart racing. You start doing it because you realize, man, every time I obey the 272 00:28:27.520 --> 00:28:31.040 Lord and some of these things, he asks me to do, there's breakthrough, there's power, there's grace. 273 00:28:32.000 --> 00:28:38.480 Like the time I said, hey, Heidi, you know how are Christians now? Well, the Lord said we should 274 00:28:38.480 --> 00:28:49.040 stop sleeping together. So we got to stop doing that. And that was a really difficult conversation 275 00:28:49.040 --> 00:28:53.920 because we'd had a year's long relationship, many years. And she said, you're breaking up with me. 276 00:28:53.920 --> 00:28:59.040 I said, no, I'm not, I'm not breaking up with you. I'm just saying we got to do it God's way 277 00:28:59.040 --> 00:29:02.720 because all whole lives have to line up. We can just do a half way. We're doing this thing all the 278 00:29:02.720 --> 00:29:12.080 way. And so for a year before we got married, the, yeah, we did that. So we were like dating, 279 00:29:13.920 --> 00:29:20.320 being the way we felt the Lord wanted us to be, not being intimate and God restored and healed 280 00:29:20.320 --> 00:29:27.280 us as we obeyed, healed and restored. That part of our life, which had been so damaged and destroyed 281 00:29:27.280 --> 00:29:37.760 by our sin. So back to the Jude story. We're in Costa Rica and I say, and again, this is one of those 282 00:29:37.760 --> 00:29:41.360 moments where I'm like, okay, I feel like the Lord wants me to do it. But my heart's kind of like, 283 00:29:41.360 --> 00:29:47.600 it's so uncomfortable. Like, do I really not apologize? I mean, I've been pretty good father lately. 284 00:29:50.000 --> 00:29:54.320 You know when you negotiate with the Lord a little bit, Lord, did you really mean like, 285 00:29:54.320 --> 00:29:58.080 like apologize, apologize? Just be like, how's it going, man? You doing okay? 286 00:30:02.720 --> 00:30:09.200 So yeah, he meant apologize, apologize. And so I said, Lord, okay, I'm going to do it. So I 287 00:30:09.200 --> 00:30:16.080 I open my mouth and I said, son, I've got to say, you know, I just wanted to ask you for forgiveness 288 00:30:16.080 --> 00:30:23.040 for being a bad father. I was absent for, you know, big chunk of your childhood and 289 00:30:23.040 --> 00:30:29.040 ignoring it. It's not going to make it go away. I want you to forgive me. And he stood up and 290 00:30:29.040 --> 00:30:34.400 came over to me at the table and said, Dad, can I just be here forgiven? Can I just pray for you? 291 00:30:34.960 --> 00:30:38.480 Start praying for me. We both started weeping the presence of God game. 292 00:30:39.680 --> 00:30:43.440 And we're in Costa Rica and the people are looking at us and I don't care. And I'm just crying. 293 00:30:43.440 --> 00:30:52.640 And the Lord healed, healed part of my heart that had regret and pain over neglecting my son. 294 00:30:53.040 --> 00:31:09.280 He's the healer. So the Lord is speaking to you today. If you've got a broken heart or pain 295 00:31:09.280 --> 00:31:15.360 in your life that's unhealed, he's saying he wants to make it as if you never walked away from him, 296 00:31:15.360 --> 00:31:20.800 as if you never went astray. There's abundant grace for restoration. In fact, the Bible, 297 00:31:20.800 --> 00:31:26.240 when it speaks of restoration, always speaks of increase or multiplication or betterment of the 298 00:31:26.240 --> 00:31:33.280 thing once it's restored, talks about restoring the years, the locust of stolen. You know, the Lord 299 00:31:33.280 --> 00:31:40.160 can do that by increasing the current years. He has abundant grace. I call it catch up grace. 300 00:31:41.280 --> 00:31:50.240 Not like catch up and mustard, but like catch up. He wants to make your life as if he walked with 301 00:31:50.240 --> 00:31:55.840 him every day of your life intimately. He can do that. He can do that because he's the restore. He's 302 00:31:55.840 --> 00:32:01.280 not bound by our timelines. He's not bound by a custody agreement. He's not bound by our past. He's 303 00:32:01.280 --> 00:32:06.400 not bound by our sin. He's the restore. And the only way he can be the restore. Amen. Yeah, you can 304 00:32:06.400 --> 00:32:14.880 clap for that. That's, that's a Lord. And the only way he can be the restore is if he's outside of 305 00:32:14.880 --> 00:32:20.000 all our issues and can come in and touch them. And you got to let him touch those by believing he's 306 00:32:20.000 --> 00:32:28.560 a good father and he's here to heal you and restore you. Okay. So it's just a suggestion, 307 00:32:28.560 --> 00:32:37.040 Pastor Boe. It's not, it's not, we're not, all right. So declare the truth of the Lord. So the 308 00:32:37.040 --> 00:32:44.400 first one was decide, decide to believe that the Lord is a good father and he desires you to be 309 00:32:44.400 --> 00:32:53.680 whole. Number two, declare the word of the Lord. The Lord wants to put some fight in us. You know, 310 00:32:53.680 --> 00:32:59.840 when I look at how Israel took the promise land, you know, some of it was, there was like a, 311 00:32:59.840 --> 00:33:04.880 there was like miraculous battles you see in like in the Old Testament where the Lord just did it 312 00:33:04.880 --> 00:33:09.520 all. He like, he made the enemy hear something and they like ran off. But most of the time it was 313 00:33:09.520 --> 00:33:16.080 like hand-to-hand combat. And the Lord had them increase gradually in the promise land because 314 00:33:16.080 --> 00:33:20.560 otherwise, you know, they wouldn't be strong enough to keep the land. So the strength that it 315 00:33:20.560 --> 00:33:26.640 takes you to fight out of your issues is the same strength it takes to stand and not give back up 316 00:33:26.640 --> 00:33:35.600 that territory. So if your soul is a battleground and there's forces fighting for it, you've got to 317 00:33:35.600 --> 00:33:39.840 learn to fight to protect it. The Bible says to protect your heart as we read at the beginning 318 00:33:39.840 --> 00:33:46.560 of Proverbs 423 said guard your heart. You got to stand guard over your heart. You got to take 319 00:33:46.560 --> 00:33:50.160 ground and keep ground. And one of the ways that the Lord strengthens you to take ground and 320 00:33:50.160 --> 00:33:54.800 keep ground is to teach you how to fight. And so we're in a battle. The Bible teaches we're in a 321 00:33:54.800 --> 00:34:01.440 battle. We have armor. We have to fight. So you need to learn how to fight if you're going to 322 00:34:01.440 --> 00:34:06.160 get whole and stay whole. If the Lord could just say, okay, you're whole, he does that sometimes. 323 00:34:06.160 --> 00:34:10.000 Like some of the things that broke off my life when I came to the city light and that first service 324 00:34:10.000 --> 00:34:16.080 while I was just weeping, the Lord changed some things like my view of the Father changed. 325 00:34:16.080 --> 00:34:21.120 You know, I was given, you know, sort of just in that moment, just a revelation of his love for me. 326 00:34:21.120 --> 00:34:26.480 That was such a gift. But other things he had me fight for, like the forgiveness issue. That 327 00:34:26.560 --> 00:34:32.240 was a huge one just sat right on my chest and it took a couple years to get that one dealt with. 328 00:34:32.240 --> 00:34:38.640 At first I was just like, oh, Lord, help. And I would wait and nothing would change. And then I 329 00:34:38.640 --> 00:34:42.960 would say, okay, that's not working. Let me try something else like, Lord, could you please give 330 00:34:42.960 --> 00:34:46.800 me the desire to forgive? I don't want to forgive. But if you could please give me the desire to forgive, 331 00:34:47.600 --> 00:34:55.040 then maybe I'll forgive. So that was kind of where I was. And then I had a revelation about, 332 00:34:55.920 --> 00:35:01.440 and I don't know when it came, but it was like the Lord started teaching me about what I speak, 333 00:35:02.320 --> 00:35:08.400 affects what I think. And I would think a lot about my woundedness. And the Lord started saying, 334 00:35:08.400 --> 00:35:14.880 if you're going to win the battle on this issue, you're going to have to learn to have godly thoughts 335 00:35:14.880 --> 00:35:20.720 and victorious thoughts. And I said, okay, Lord, how do I do that? And then there's a scripture about 336 00:35:20.720 --> 00:35:27.840 how the tongue directs your life. It's like the rudder of a ship and how what you speak influences 337 00:35:27.840 --> 00:35:34.160 what you think. And so the Lord started teaching me speak what you want to think. And it doesn't 338 00:35:34.160 --> 00:35:39.040 matter if you feel it, you start speaking it. It starts to shape your soul. So I started speaking 339 00:35:39.040 --> 00:35:44.320 forgiveness. I didn't feel it at all. But I started speaking it and saying, I forgive. 340 00:35:44.320 --> 00:35:52.800 I don't really love for doing it. I forgive. I forgive. I forget what name the people that hurt 341 00:35:52.800 --> 00:35:58.080 me. I forgive this person. I forgive this person. I woke up one day and realized I had no more 342 00:35:58.080 --> 00:36:04.720 forgiveness issues. Like they went away. And I woke up one day and realized I wasn't dwelling on 343 00:36:04.720 --> 00:36:09.360 it anymore. I wasn't dwelling anymore. And I was learning to think, you know, I was learning to 344 00:36:09.360 --> 00:36:14.800 catch myself thinking about despair and grief and ways that have been wounded and put my eyes on 345 00:36:14.800 --> 00:36:19.680 the Lord. And the Lord, the Lord doesn't scare of your pain, but he doesn't want you just looking at 346 00:36:19.680 --> 00:36:23.920 your pain all the time. If you just spend time just wallowing your pain, you'll be the most depressed 347 00:36:23.920 --> 00:36:29.440 person on earth. I mean, your pain, it won't go away by looking at it. It goes away by taking it 348 00:36:29.440 --> 00:36:34.880 to the Lord and saying, Lord, I'm going to contend with this issue until I see breakthrough. 349 00:36:34.880 --> 00:36:41.200 It's until I see freedom. I'm not going to stop because you don't stop coming from me. You persist. 350 00:36:41.200 --> 00:36:46.160 You persist. So he's putting his DNA in you. He's a fighter. He's a father who fights for his 351 00:36:46.160 --> 00:36:51.600 family. And he's putting that same DNA in you so that you fight. So you fight for your issues. 352 00:36:51.600 --> 00:36:55.760 You don't give up. You have a persistent spirit. All right. So that's the declaration part. 353 00:36:55.760 --> 00:37:03.120 And the last one is deal with your pain without delay. The Lord is, the Lord will give you some 354 00:37:03.120 --> 00:37:08.640 things to do. If you'd noticed the two stories I told, one was about a pain or a trauma that 355 00:37:08.640 --> 00:37:13.520 disconnected me from the church as people. Another one was something that disconnected me from the Lord 356 00:37:13.520 --> 00:37:18.880 and how I saw the Father. Do the opposite of those two things. Connect to the Lord. Connect to people. 357 00:37:19.680 --> 00:37:24.640 Godly people. Stay plugged into the church. It's safety. It's protection. It's healing. 358 00:37:25.600 --> 00:37:30.080 The Lord often will bring your healing while you're ministering to someone else for their healing. 359 00:37:30.960 --> 00:37:34.720 Start praying for people about your issue. Lord, I pray that you help people in this church 360 00:37:34.720 --> 00:37:39.520 is forgive. I pray that they would drop all offenses. Start praying for other people. 361 00:37:39.520 --> 00:37:45.200 Start ministering out of the thing you start sowing the seed you need and ministering out of 362 00:37:45.200 --> 00:37:50.800 that place of what you need. So the Lord wants to connect you with people today. He wants to 363 00:37:50.800 --> 00:37:55.680 reconnect you with him. He wants you to say, Lord, Lord, I'm sorry for seeing you as a distant 364 00:37:55.680 --> 00:38:02.720 Father. You're the one who runs toward me. He wants you to open up. One of the biggest things you 365 00:38:02.720 --> 00:38:10.080 can do is if you're dealing with pain in your life, talk to someone about it. Bringing that light 366 00:38:10.080 --> 00:38:18.320 into the issue is huge and it breaks the power of that thing in your life. I had this, I had this, 367 00:38:19.120 --> 00:38:22.480 I'll just, I'm getting a little too transparent maybe, but I just toe fungus. 368 00:38:25.280 --> 00:38:30.560 And it wasn't getting better by just putting the drops on it. So I had to go, this was actually 369 00:38:30.560 --> 00:38:39.360 yesterday. I had to go to this podiatrist. And they had to laser it. And he's like, man, 370 00:38:39.360 --> 00:38:44.240 the thing's gone all the way to the root. How long have you waited? It's been a couple years. 371 00:38:44.240 --> 00:38:49.840 It's like, yeah, that thing, man, things really, you let the thing go. And I said, yeah, well, 372 00:38:49.840 --> 00:38:53.440 so that's, that's a little illustration of what happens with our woundedness. 373 00:38:55.520 --> 00:39:00.320 You let that funk sit in the dark. It'll just keep growing. It'll get into the roots of your heart. 374 00:39:00.320 --> 00:39:05.440 It'll affect other areas of your life. Bring it into the light. I get that laser on it. The Holy 375 00:39:05.440 --> 00:39:10.560 Spirit laser, let it heal, kill that stuff. It kills it so fast. It took like two minutes. It didn't 376 00:39:10.560 --> 00:39:17.920 even hurt. It was just like, that's it. That's it. That was easy. I'll give you the doctor's 377 00:39:17.920 --> 00:39:26.000 recommendation if you guys need podiatrist. It's only cash. It's like one of these Ridgewood 378 00:39:26.720 --> 00:39:40.320 Queens doctors. But hey, you know, it works. It works. I knew a guy who went there and got it done, 379 00:39:40.320 --> 00:39:45.360 so like I went on the testimony of someone else, you know, to get to get my healing. 380 00:39:48.240 --> 00:39:51.840 So deal with your pain. God's going to give you some things to do. If you're afraid to do it, 381 00:39:51.840 --> 00:39:57.040 do it afraid. If you're afraid to do it in your heart is racing. Do it with a heart racing. 382 00:39:57.040 --> 00:40:00.480 There's some steps that the Lord, I believe, is going to get some of you to do and take 383 00:40:01.520 --> 00:40:06.320 to root something out of your life. That's that you know is destroying your life. That's holding 384 00:40:06.320 --> 00:40:12.800 you back. That you need healing and deliverance from. Go to someone. It's a start. It takes a 385 00:40:12.800 --> 00:40:18.000 process. Keep fighting until you're free. Keep your eyes on the Father. He will heal you. He's 386 00:40:18.000 --> 00:40:23.600 healed the rest of our lives and my family completely bringing us from a place of total 387 00:40:23.600 --> 00:40:32.000 brokenness to a place of wholeness. I don't feel the crippling anxiety and pain that I used to 388 00:40:32.000 --> 00:40:36.880 feel. I mean, it would just be hard for me to be quiet and alone just because of all the 389 00:40:37.520 --> 00:40:45.840 damage. It's so nice to be free, you know. It's so nice to know you're loved. I never want to 390 00:40:45.840 --> 00:40:50.960 go back. So if I see something coming into my life, some issue, I'm pretty ruthless with it now. 391 00:40:50.960 --> 00:40:55.200 I want to have a Holy Spirit immune system that says, no, I'm not picking up that offense, 392 00:40:55.200 --> 00:41:00.800 that criticism, that that back biting. I'm not responding in that spirit. I want to keep 393 00:41:00.800 --> 00:41:08.560 clean before the Lord. Amen. So yeah, if you're here today and any of this spoke to you, 394 00:41:08.560 --> 00:41:13.600 there's prayer ministry obviously is a great place to go. There are a lot of mature Christians 395 00:41:13.600 --> 00:41:18.640 in this church, an amazing number. It's a healthy church. You can like throw a dart and probably 396 00:41:18.640 --> 00:41:25.120 hit a mature Christian. Don't try it, but you could probably do that. So you talk to somebody 397 00:41:25.120 --> 00:41:29.040 you know as doing walnut faith or just have you have a trusting relationship with it and pray 398 00:41:29.040 --> 00:41:34.720 for you. Don't leave today without doing some of the steps that, you know, you've got to put 399 00:41:34.800 --> 00:41:38.000 hollated on your heart during this message. Pastor Bo. 400 00:41:42.640 --> 00:41:47.440 This is the City Light Church podcast. If you've missed any part of today's message, 401 00:41:47.440 --> 00:41:51.920 or if you would like to find out more about Pastor Boyan Jansik in City Light Church, 402 00:41:51.920 --> 00:42:00.560 visit us at citylightnyc.com. That's citylightnyc.com. Feel free to visit us online or in person 403 00:42:00.560 --> 00:42:06.480 anytime. We would love to connect with you. 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